Ugga!

Aloha! I think I might be happy. I"m not sure. Maybe I'm just well rested. Today for the most part went really well. Dude has been massively sick. Shits and vomiting for about 24 hours now. I hope I get to take a shower at some point before work tomorrow. So yes today went well. I stayed up till 3am this morning chatting/arguing with ppl online so I was apparently tired. I woke up around 7 to the sound of Dude yelling at mom to call him off his double today. very sick puppydude. well i turned over and went back to sleep till mom woke me at 11:30. she likes to embellish, so i thought she was kidding. nope. i had to be at work at noon! had i not eaten i might have made it on time. i was 5 minutes late and ppl were not happy. oops. work went pretty well and i got break on time. then as i got back from break my boss shirley who i hate and think hates me as well was busy with customers so i leaned against the desk and waited. she hissed "will you stand up!" at me and i wanted to sit down out of obstinance, but i obeyed and did what she wanted. bitch.

well anyway the whole house is fuckin' stinky and eggy smelling right now so i'm going to megan's www.xanga.com/shaniafanatic to shower. i work at 11-5 tomorrow.
melissa

end of the year

well it's getting to be the end of the year. as usual melissa has no plans. i'll be stuck at home with all the people having diahrrea. then at midnight it will be family hug time. kill me now. i would rather be out in chicago with the loons. i am going to make 2005 as colorful as possible. i also have set my goals to be as destructive as possible, and have fantastic sex ha ha ha ha ha not possible. why r ppl nutz.
melissa

Ha ha!!!!

Me devil! Me make cookies that nana can't eat :) Hahahaha. I love seeing ppl suffer. ;) So I haven't heard from this one new guy I met a while ago and I'm kinda mad so I'm gonna see what's up. I did manage to hear from the dude I wrote about a few posts back. He was year a year ago dec 19 and his wife beat him up. Well I got an email and apparently, he had another child with her. Kyle Logan C. It actually is making me mad that he is still with her but hopefully she is better. He's such a good guy and he's determined that the word marraige doesn't mean divorce, but dear god! What an idiot. Whatever. On a brighter note I did hear from Kelly my mommy from ALpha Phi. She's alive and well. She's gonna be a cancer nurse. I happy she wrote me. Me go away now. Tummy!
Melissa Devil

PRESENTS!!!!

I GOT PRESENTS I GOT PRESENTS I GOT PRESENTS I GOT PRESENTS :) bff got my digital camera which I am currently in a fight with, plus video tapes for recording stuff AND I DISCOVERED THEY ARE 8 HOURS WHICH ROCKS THANKS BFF *knocks u to the ground and tackles and licks you* Megz got me Clay's Christmas Cd and Clay's 2005 calendar which I can't spell. Thanks megs! *has already knocked megz to the ground and tackled her but owes her licking*

So Santy came early. Technically it's still Christmas Eve cuz I haven't gone to bed yet and for some reason we all decided to exchange gifts. Oh I should probably mention mom is home from the hospital. She shouldn't be but whatever. Dude decided to give her part of her present tonight cuz we didn't think she would be home tonight and he wanted to make her feel better about staying over one more night. So he was going to give her a necklace with a heart shaped gold thing with diamonds and rubies, her birth stone. He went ahead and did that anyway and mom being mom reacted with her typical thank you - "it's not what i wanted...it's pretty though...can I exchange it?" Dude has been hearing that for 30 years so whatever. Then mom and I gave Dude his underwear :) It's what he wanted. Underwear, jewlery, underwear, jewelery. Yea that's equal ;)

We decided I should just open my gift and I was so thrilled. I GOT BASICALLY ALL THE DVD'S I ASKED FOR - FAMILY GUY VOLUMES 1&2, PRINCE & ME, AND ABOUT A BOY. I asked for The Crucible as well but I don't see that very much so there ya go. So now I"m really feelin bad cuz I got Dude underwear and he just spent over $100 on me. I haven't gotten mommy anything cuz...I was gonna get her a bottle of vodka when I thought it was funny...then I realized it wasn't funny. She would like it but I would just get pissed and ug. So she gets nothing.

Dude goes upstairs and comes down with BONUS PRESENTS for me and mom. Mom got the necklace she wanted with a gold chain and 2 cirlcle things one gold one silver and diamond. She was thrilled...but it's small lol. Can't win with mommy. I got a diamond necklace also. It's a 3 diamond thing and they are in a verticle line and it's silver, well white gold. It's small diamonds but I'm happy :) Mom has the real thing and she doesn't like hers but she gets mad when I wear it lol. I'm happy. The chain is real delicate otherwise I would wear it to bed. I'M SO HAPPY!!!!

MEOWY CWISTMAS!!!!
Melissa & Sitch
Oliver&Cali
Mom&Dude.

Crappy Christmas to all

Aloha. It's turning out to be a crappy Christmas. Mom's in the hospital and I hope she stays there for a while so she can just chill out. She's safe from me and Nana and everything. Dude comes up there and stays most of the day. I can't do that. I hate hospitals. They stress me out like crazy. So mom's in her retreat and bff and her family went to their Kentucky retreat and their Christmas is turing out even crappier than ours lol. Their pipes are about to burst, their driveway is nearly impassible, cuz it's long and windy cuz they are out in the woods, their boat dock is sinking, and their dog is probably chewing on everything he can get his teeth on :) I have to go work now. That's a crappy thing too cuz our boss is an asshole. Every year that I have worked at that store we have been able to wear nice clothes for the one lousy day of the year. This year "it's not a dress up day." Booooo! I hope she's not here next year...I hope she's not year next month. Ohwell Nana is making the house stink so I better get the hell out.
Melissa

Unsure

I'm unsure. I don't know who or what to trust anymore. Senses and people are deceiving. It's snowing. I went to see The Phantom of the Opera. It was good yet bad. Cold feet.

dream

last might i had a very disturbing dream...we were at Munster high school but it wasn't mhs but it was, but whatever. I was in class and a teacher opened our door (really it was linda from osco) and she said "students with insurance, go to your administrators office." she then shut the door and wento the next door to say the same thing. you could just tell that it was code for 'lookout ppl are in the building with guns.' nobody could really make heads or tails out of what the instructions meant though. did it mean go to the counsilor, get out of the building, go to the other building, what did it mean? then i saw dr. bartlett in the cafeteria and he ignored me. grrrrr. i woke up at 5:30 to the sounds of things crashing and ppl yelling.
i was supposed to meet with a guy today and i had the alarm set for 7am to get up and shower and be there at 10, but as u can see it's past 10 and i'm here rather than there. he got called to drive to the suburbs for work. grrrr. maybe we'll meet up later. i wanna go sleep.
2 days ago i exchanged presents with bff and megan. i got my digital camera from bff and pretzels and fudge as well as blank video tapes for one tree hill and stuff. she gave me a new mousepad as well. i got her futurama season 1 dvd. Megan got me clay aiken's x-mas cd and clays 2005 calendar. i was so excited i knocked her over, tackled her and probably would have licked her if i could have...somehow i really don't remember thanking bff at all. oops. THANK YOU BFF.
Melissa

Icicles

My tears feel like frozen icicles on my face. Dude screamed at me for no good reason. See mom fell down today and killed her knee and her head. Nana has been going berserk all day. Dude came home and screamed at me for no good reason. Eric keeps driving me nutz yet he's being so nice. Very confusing. I want to meet someone awesome tomorrow and the world seems to be against me! Grrrr.
Melissa

One year ago...

It's been one year since Kevin, Shanda Lei, and Ian came to Munster. Shanda Lei found herself in the Lake County Jail for 6 days for domestic abuse before Kevin finally bailed her out. I've been thinking about it constantly. I still have the pictures of the disaster in my mind like it happenned yesterday. I hope they are all safe...yes all of them.

I feel guilty that I made Megan drive home in this snow. As far as Munster goes, it stopped snowing long ago, but it could pick up again. In some spots there is 20+ inches and I-90 got closed down for 2 hours to let plows go through. Poor Meg. Sowwy. I wrote in purple just for you :)

Melissa

More shit to talk about

So yesterday I wrote about Nana fartin' around at the dinner table. Today I just may as well talk about the shit that happenned literally at Jewel. Apparently, somebody got chrome's disease all over our store. The fucking store manager made a bagger clean it up. If she can walk her ass over there to show a bagger, why the hell doesn't she do it herself??? Cleaning human waste off the floor is certainly not a bagger's job.

Dinner

Nana farted at the dinner table! Nasty! She stood up to get some french fries, and this long, loud gurgle came from her. I swore it was her stomach, but then the smell hit me. OMG!!!!! She was embarrassed and mom made a huge deal out of it. However, Dude did it later and nobody said anything. I wanted to have a big production about it...

Work is going better. I had 8 hours today! I almost didn't get my frist break because Chris is a bitch and hates me. Whatever her problem is I don't know. I let her know. I was like 'you know i have 8 hours right?' She was in the process of letting the people that would have relieved me for my break go to other registers. She's just an ass. Shirley yelled at me about self checkout again today. I hate her as a manager, but actually as a person she's kinda nice. You just have to seperate the two...kinda like our new associate front end manager. That's right folks, we have a new person again. Judy is on medical leave till the first of the year so she won't be in at at all, and she's basically stepped down beyond that to be a part time person, so I don't really understand that. Nancy is our new associate manager. I worked with her for the first time Wed. and I was not impressed. She was really impersonal and hard if that makes sense. Today I worked with her and we actually talked. She asked me how to do something lol. She doesn't know any better ;) Apparently she's from a store in Tinley Park. They have the new computer system so she must be at a new or remodeled store. I kept running out of money in my drawer so she kept rescuing me. She's really nice. I wonder how long it will take before she becomes as bad as all the others. I did notice something very interesting today. The phone would ring and ring and ring and nobody would answer, mainly because we were all busy and Nancy was actually working with the customers rather than hiding in the office, bookroom, or whatever else that managers do that causes them to magically vanish at times of chaos and disaster. I was stunned. ALL HAIL NANCY!
Melissa

Fantasy

So many ways for Melissa to not do her work, so little time. While at work today I was seriously considering opening up a resuraunt in Santa Fe but now I think I might just swing on a star...what do you think? *dances*
Melissa

And 6 tries later...

...I finally get to make my entry.

I SAW AN ASS PURSE TODAY! I was so excited :) At first it was just another little blue leather purse next to all the bustee baskets (boost-ee-ay). Well anyway I saw this blue leather purse and it had 2 pockets in front like the backside of a pair of jeans and I couldn't get the pockets open so I turned the purse around and opened the zipper at the top. I noticed the other side of the purse had a zipper and a silver chain belt and realized i was looking at the ass of a pair of jeans! IT'S AN ASS PURSE! I wanted to buy it just to be obnoxious to my father. The butt part of the jeans was even padded ;)

School is wrapping up. This week is finals in school and at work I have more than 20 hours this week. Today I ran from Walmart to Walmart looking for some ridiculous jar opener. Whatever. That's where I saw the above mentioned ass purse. I am wearing lots of blue today and I"m warm and happy. Meeting lots of new ppl as well. Gotta go. Eating chicken shits for dinner :0 ) Yumyum!
Melissa

Chicago

Well today was a bit of a disaster. It was my fault really. I thought that since we were downtown we could invite Caroline and really there was nothing wrong with that decision. It just got a little crazy at the end. To be honest, I didn't think we would see her, she was waiting on someone to come and take her bunk beds and then she called and said she was going to meet us at watertower. She finally did but bff and I were feeding our faces with Auntie Anne's Pretzels so we were full of food and ready to shop. With me and bff, that was dinner kinda lol. Well we did some shopping at Borders and all got something I think. I told bff I bought family guy on dvd but that was a bold face lie :) We were not interested in food but we started to figure out that we needed to take the 8p train back rather than the 10p so we began going into meltdown panic mode about food. All I really had to offer was "I want Italian!" We ate at what was a Portillo's with a Barillos or something in it. The place itself was really kewl but it was like giong to the mall and ordering food at the food court, only less organized and more panicy. It was decorated like RENT so that was like being in the show lol. I'm just nutz I know. Anyway, by the time I got to eat, it was bascially time to go. I would have at least eaten my garlic bread that I got special, but my coke spilled all over it when I was trying to ssssqqqqqquuuuuueeeeeezzzzzzzeeeeee in the isle and not spill my tray on people. Could it be any more stupidly set up? I had pasta which was dumb cuz it was just the noodles with a bit of sauce on the top, much like a food court or school lunch. Grrrr. Other than that disaster of being rushed it was a good day. I imagined in my head that if I had been on some sort of date, I would have somehow found this all romantic or something because the actual eating space was neat and the walk to the station was very refreshing with all the lights *happy sigh*.

On an insane note we went to the Disney store today and I bought NOTHING!!! Not a single Stitch!!!! There was a sale going on Buy 1 Get 1 Free! There were these huge Stitches that were half the size of me and I"m 4'9" and they were fluffy and covered in hair/fur. They were only $40 so if you split the cost of 1 it would have been $20 for 2 of them. Can you believe that somehow I wasn't interested and managed to talk bff out of it???? What the hell is wrong with me???? Well, I'll tell ya lol. I thought it looked like an evil stitch, his hair was all everywhere and he looked mean and he looked like Harry Monster on Sesame Street. Very unhappy.
Melissa

so blah

Wellllllll I guess I'm excited. Semester is winding down, Melissa is going to fail life, and I met someone new. I do'nt think it will come to much, but I"m so hoping it will. I think I'm kinda rid of Tony for now. I'm glad cuz he was making me crazy. I was supposed to hear from him around Thanksgiving, but then he never called back. I left him a friendly message and he still hasn't called. Whatever.
Yesterday I found out that my manager who I view as evil (Shirley) is a former schoolteacher. Why the hell couldn't she have just stayed doing that job. She's nice to talk to and stuff but jeeez. I have really got to take things one at a time cuz there is a lot going on and I can't think past this moment. Think think think. Today, class (no!) then next class is a final (yay then I don't go there next week.) After that I have to go home and take mom to the store, grrrrr. Nana must die. Maybe in that break I can also start some laundry cuz I need clean jeans for this weekend WHEN I GO TO CHICAGO!!!! More about that in a minute. Let's see, I have my last class at 5:30, we are doing our speeches ha ha ha ha haha ha ha. Disaster will strike. Then I get to go home and if I can think straight, today is Thurs which means Survivor is on. This should be good. Maybe more laundry. I'm hungry.
Yeah tomorrow is Friday and I work 2-6 doing 'Office' meaning self check out. That will drive me nutz, but maybe I'll be on a register instead. That would be better. Speaking of register I should do that but I refuse. I'll have to shower and shave and do that stuff. Ugga.
Yes Saturday will be exciting. bff and I are making our annual Christmas mecca go Chicago. Goin shoppin, and lookin at the windows and good stuff like that. Maybe we can get on the free shoppin trollys and I can attempt to get us killed again! That was fun 2 years ago. I basically ran out into traffic coming at me in 3 directions while attempting to catch the trolly ;) That's when we discovered that megan likes to blow her boy (not literally, it was a madlib) and that when playing hide and go seek, the subject should counterattack the camera and scream PIZZA! lol
Melissa

school scheduling

This is such bullshit. I'm so mad I can't do anything. I want to get on MSN messenger, but no. The world hates Melissa. On top of that, the semster is ending and that means it's time to start scheduling classes for next semseter....but I don't wanna! I hate going to school. I want nothing to do with it. Mom and dad are pissed, so they got the neighbor involved because she works here. WTF! Now, not only am I being forced against my will to go to school and waste everyone's time and money, I am being forced into taking crappy classes here because my neighbor wants me to be a busniess major...great idea for someone who isn't motivated...she's created my whole freakin' schedule! She always makes me talk to the business and economics people about what to take and what to do....get the hell away from me. The biggest problem is that I can't escape! She's my neighbor. I literally thought I was going to lose it and blow up and scream at the top of my freakin lungs this morning. I was simply trying to get to class...that's all...she was determined to take me upstairs to the main office and schedule my classes. I don't want to do that, those people want nothing to do with me, I'm a guest student. They are trying to add me as a major...NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! She was all filling out forms for me and taking my ID number down and I just felt my life slipping out of my hands! This is simply ridiculous.

Why is the girl at the next computer staring at me???? I think I will leave now.
Melissa

peaceful...

So last night I had my own personally defined mental breakdown. I cried all night long, screamed and yelled at everyone, hated the world, cried myself to sleep, and prayed to God. I talked to him and I told him that I really couldn't take it anymore and need a break. I know we are only given what He thinks we can handle, but jeez! Why did he have to invent my family???? I told Him that He either needed to take my family or make sure that I didn't wake up in the morning. Apparently, He didn't like either of those ideas. Kinda scary cuz I bet just to be cruel, he'd take Dude away frist. I would definately have to die. I also suggested that if none of that would be possible, could he send me someone to love me. Nobody loves me. I wanna be loved. All I do is fight with people, send me someone to love me. I need a boyfriend. At the end of the day I just want to crash into the arms of someone a lot stronger than me and be held and comforted and loved. I hope that happens.
Anyway this morning I woke up with a big sense of peace. Now if I could run and hide and avoid people all day I would be able to keep this peace. However, I have to go home now and mom has already lined up 50 things we have to do. I feel the stress and the disaster taking over....
It's all killing me slowly....
Melissa

RAGE

Ugh! Why the hell have I been so damn angry lately. The littlest thing sets me off into this massive rage...well ok I"m getting a little dramatic here, but dammit why can I not be happy?????
If anybody wants to know what to get me for x-mas, I want a Sony Network Walkman. It's only $400 and not really sold in stores much yet lol. I love you.
So I was instructed to go to the store and get laundry stuff. Well I was gonna go to Jewel with the intent to get store products and get my associate discount plus a store brand discount and Dude managed to take my keys because he took B.B. to get washed. My life is all in vein....it's all killing me slowly....
I don't really like this nailpolish as much as I used to. Cover Girl Nailslicks Electric Blue. I have so many blues that are better. Maybe I'm not in the mood for bright....so aggrivated. I have been rather addicted to Dew lately so that is a good cause of this I'm sure, but do you really want to see me decaffinated???? I would probably kill myself or someone around me....at least I hope so ;)
Melissa

An entertaining holiday story

I'm at my best friend's house. I love bff...no no no get your head out of the gutter. I just love her cuz I got so insanely pissed today and then I called her and she laughed really hard at me and now I'm better. You too can laugh at the ridiculous time I had at Hallmark....I hate the holidays.

I had to work from 8a-Noon. No big deal. It was nice and quiet. Judy was the manager today. I don't work with her much. She looks like she's had some work done. Oh well. Once again, I was my own boss. Everyone drives her nutz so I took the nice approach and was just quiet and helpful. I left and life is good. Well last night mom kept saying the only thing she wanted to do today was to go to Maria's Hallmark cuz they sent her a catalogue. Fine, I came home from work and ate lunch and then with some drama as usual, we left. Mom kept complaining that her legs were killing her and she wasn't gonna be able to walk around in Hallmark. I just yelled and said it was all mental and she was wasting her energy being negative and to shut up :) I'm so nice to mommy.
I drop her off at the door and go park on the other side of the lot. I'm listeing to the radio and being nice and warm and happy. I figure I will give her a few minutes to shop ahead of me. I walk in about 5 minutes later and she's just standing at the door. My frist thought was crap they don't have what she wants and she's pissed and has been wating, oops. No, she's at the door cuz that's as far as she got and won't go shop cuz her legs hurt. It got me very upset. I don't want to do her shopping for her cuz if someone wants their personal touch on something they need to do it themselves. She's like 'on this page i want this, and on this page i want this, use your credit card to pay, where's the keys." Grrrrrrrrrr! Stupid bitch. She goes to the car to sit down.
Well since I was pissed I was rushing trying to hurry and find what she wants and get the hell out of there. Now, most of you may know what it's like in a Hallmark store, loaded with expensive and breakable crap, not much room to walk, 10 billion ppl with noplace to go, etc. Of course, they don't have what mom wants. I realize I"m pissed so I'm sure I'm just missing it. I look again. I go over by the front window where the cards are and there is a lady there looking at cards. She's perfectly in the middle of the isle, you can not get around her. I make an attempt to ssssqqqqquuuuueeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzeeeeee past her. BIG MISTAKE. I bumped into a banner hanging from the celing which knocked over some little x-mas trees and they all hit the floor, nothing broke luckily. The lady never moved, didn't take a step back or forward. I must admit I never said "excuse me" "con permission" or anything, but duh, get out of my way. I make an attempt to pick up the little trees, but the stupid lady STILL WOULD NOT MOVE and so I got really pissed and jumped up without cleaning anything and started to go around the card isle, I felt my head hit all the windchimes and suddenly there was a huge commotion of chimes, I must have hit every single one of them, AND I DIDN'T STOP MOVING. I charged around the corner and went around the other side of the cards. I wasn't in control of my legs, I just kept getting mad and kept moving forward. I went to where the trees were on the ground and somehow managed to keep from knocking that bitch over and screaming YOU COULD HAVE MOVED!!!! I cleaned up my mess and got the hell out of that store and went to the car. Jesus!
Mom was not happy, we fought the rest of the day, ugh! I was still pissed when I got home so I called bff and told her this story and she laughed hysterically at me like I do to her whenever she talks about her family lol. She and I went to dinner at Bennigans and they were so speedy it was insane. We should have tipped more than $2 hehe. Oh well we were smart. I dont know what that comment means but soon I will be playing Sims and I am happy lol.
Melissa

Green and Cold and Hungry

I think I must be close to having a mental breakdown...that may be why i was so critical of the cd. Kelly, I like your album, I have a problem, please use your hard earned money to pay for my therapy ;)
Ok I wrote bff a note in Theater class today cuz I didn't care about Checkov. I will post it here and you can all make fun of me and my mental breakdown...I'm cold btw.

Dec 2
So like, the world is green. I'm wearing green but I'm cute. The Dew can is green is green, but it is warm and inviting and comforting and makes me happy. The chalkboard is green and it is kinda like a wall (duh i know). Hear me out. It just seems to be screaming STOP! It's just a solid green, almost forrest green. YOU SHALL NOT PASS, YOU SHALL NOT LEARN. It just looks hard and stupid and in the way. There is a book on the desk, I suspect it is a play, probably The Glass Menagerie. It is a deep forrest green, almost like a back. If you put your hand on it to pick it up, your whole arm would get sucked in like a gooey vaccuum. OOOO She just picked it up and it's black! Interesting.
Melissa

Kelly Clarkson Breakaway CD

I went to Target yesterday and bought some christmas presents. I also got myself one. Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway CD was only 9.98! It's only on till Dec 4 and I won't be back there by then so I figured I'd get it. I should have known better I suppose. The price alone was a sign that people are sick of the single perhaps. Here's my personal review.

1 - Breakaway - Yeah kewl song. I like the melody, I have been avoiding the song while it has been on the radio in an effort to want to actually get the cd and not hate the song by the time I got the CD. Guess it worked.
2 - Since U Been Gone - Heard a clip on tv, thought it sounded kewl. Sounds a little boring at the beginning. Listening to the lyrics makes me freak a little. What kind of bad relationships have Kelly been in that inspire these songs? Oh well. I like how Kelly is doing a lot of her own background stuff and it is 2 octaves higher lol. I hope shes not gonna blow her voice out performing like she did with Miss Independant.
3 - Behind These Hazel Eyes - Wow, hard rock sounding. The lyrics of this song sound like the other, talking about being ripped apart over a relationship. Can't breathe and all that. Her singing is again deep and then she's singing ontop of it octaves up. Melody is kewl. Oooo she's screaming. Now again, I think the effect is groovy, but I'm not gonna wanna see live performances.
4 - Because Of You - Slow quiet song, nice. My ears recover. Interesting lyrics. It speaks to me, I feel this way about some people. I like the sidewalk concept. This may be the Before Your Love song. Not too much screaming, hope this will be a single so she won't kill her voice too much.
5 - Gone - A title many artists have used. Wow, very ... what word to use...non connected. Digital. Violent? Angry? Killer? Groovy :) Has a lot of punch to it. Rythymic and yet not...I ca't think of the musical term. I love it. Aw crap, there's the high screaming thing again. Still love it. Kelly's poor voice....it's already gone.
6 - Addicted - This is "the most haunting and vulnerable performance" of the CD this far ;) Again I ask why Kelly can't breathe, and why she is so messed up lol. Cuz she is addicted, but I wonder what relationships this is based on. Kewl song...I predict more screaming soon...ooo the melody changes, it jumps in a pattern and the octave vocals come back. Super.
7 - Where Is Your Heart - This starts out making me think Clay will be singing Shine. Slow song again. Her vocal styling is like Sarah McGlaucklan (sorry, I don't know how to spell it). Ok so she sings very pretty and then gets real loud and not pretty. I am so unable to do this intelligently. I sorry. I don't think this goes very well together. Make it all pretty or rock it out, or for god sake make it go well together. It's relaxing and then harsh out of nowhere! I like the lyrics though. I feel like perhaps with the words and then the vocal style that she's about to suffer a mental breakdown.
8 - Walk Away - Back to rock. I like the ...it isn't quite sticcato, but punchy way she does it. If it were a stringed intstrument, I would say she is singing "off the string". Is it spicatto? I think that is the term I want. Melody is groovy but this screaming thing is gonna make me nutz. My mother will be unable to stand this cd. The one part about wanting a man not a boy reminds me of Judas's breakdown and suicide in Jesus Christ Superstar. I'm frightened.
9 - You Found Me - I have the urge to compare this to the song that has the lyric "average ordinary blah blah" The Melody is what causes that. Lyrics are kewl. I feel like kelly ... I just really want to know who she's been with the past 2 years lol. I feel like she's saying "you took me off the shelf when nobody wanted me" It makes me feel bad for her. I must be messed up in the head, not her.
10 - I Hate Myself For Losing You - No real impression. She's looking in the mirror and upset with herself. I think this cd should have been called Breakdown instead of breakaway.
11 - Hear Me - the first 7 seconds scare me, I get the picture she's drowning or being silenced. Wow, it goes from quiet to loud very well. Much better than Where Is Your Heart. Maybe she's about to go kick someones ass. Eh. I hear you Kel, do I care....
12 - Beautiful Disaster Live - Yay, this is the Kelly I like best. Pretty Kelly singing pretty and calm and this is the reason she won so this is what she should stick with so hell ya!

Overall Impression - I feel like I have just been through Dante's Inferno with Kelly. Filled with torture and emotion. I hope this goes really well for Kelly, cuz I think this has the potential to get killed by critics. Maybe the journey is more like the movie What Dreams May Come since it seems to have a happy ending.

HAPPY AGAIN!!!!!

MELISSA AMBER FALGIER IS HAPPY AGAIN!!!!!

Just thought I should announce that. I gues I'll keep the italicised writring. Looks kewl anyway. What's with this font? Wow, I didn't do any of this. I'm just happy. The sun is shining again, I almost crashed the car and then later almost fell on my face, but I'm still happy! *doing backflips* I was late getting up again today, and let's face it, had the phone not rang, I would still be sleeping right now, BUT I WOULD BE HAPPY :) I'm happy none the less. I'm nice and warm and happy. Happy Clappy. I actually had something real to write here...oh yeah. I was in the mood for some pop music on the way to school so I popped in some LFO (lyte funky ones) and I was super happy. I hope Devin Lima comes out with a solo project soon. LFO is just perfect for winter for some reason. It was their first cd but the second will be the soundtrack for the return trip home.
HAVE A NICE HAPPY DAY EVERYONE!!!!!
Melissa