Crap through and through

so yeah today i ate crap all day long and now i'm paying for it lol. my breakfast was healthy, a banana..and a Dew :) lunch was 4 leftover dippin strip pizza slices from pizza hut, delicious, with ranch and garlic sauces...and Dew :) dinner was white castle...and Dew :) my whole world is semi upside down. it's interesting. a few days ago i was going to the "mall" that isn't a mall anymore and the expressway was calling to me. what a liberating feeling. i really considered just getting on there and driving to noplace where i can just drive and live and clear my head. i've been having lots of crazy thoughts lately and i'm pretty much thinking of entertaining them...nothing illegal. so guess what. today in religion class we were talking about judaism and marraige and i got to thinking about why the hell should anyone bother to get married? does god even intend for us to get married? why didn't he have someone around to marry adam and eve..shouldn't he begin at the beginning????
melissa

Working girl

I'm glad work is over for this weekend. I have met the absolute laziest, supid, evil, people who acted like we haven't been a civilized planet in nearly 5 billion years. I have been very cranky. They caused it. My back is killing me. Mainly cuz I think something is around the corner, but it could just be stress from the retards I had to deal with. On one hand, it was nice to work without Shirley being there but at the same time, the people who work Sundays drive me up the wall. It's Carol, not working, Justin messing around with all the other idiot guys that work, and the evil customers. I just want to go lay down and have someone snuggle up to me and rub my back and feed me and love me :)
Well at least Extreme Makeover Home Edition is on tonight. OH! Last night we had rippin dippin pizza from pizza hut! It was groovy! Get some!
Melissa

Aviator!!!

Went with bff to see The Aviator last night. Didn't like it. Sorry. However, some funny quotes from the evening were "How many lazy people does it take to start a movie?"-bff, "War Postponed - No Clouds"-a sign in the movie" and others. Kate Blanchett was spiffy as Katherine Hepburn.

Bff called me today. In the last 24 hours since I had seen her she sent me 4 emails lol. Crazy girl. She came up with this superior idea to start a story blog! We're still in the planning stages, so I'll send more info when I figure out what we are doing. I was so excited when I heard about this idea that I broke the stuff in mom's china hutch!!!! Yikes!

Megan if u are reading this and haven't already done so, check ur voicemail. Dr. Pepper news!

I got to sleep in till 11 today and woke up to Kelly Clarkson singing on Ellen. She did good. I was concerned she wouldn't. I did have a bad dream about being with bff and her brother and we got captured by Darth Vador and he caused us to stop breathing. I wasn't happy when I woke up unable to breathe!

Melissa

rawr

Allow me to complain. Neopets has crashed. It owes me a million points! I'm mad. I'm also very curious why it isn't working. I'm curious about lots of things at the moment. Mainly I'm totally excited about tomorrow! TOMORROW IS OFFICIAL MELISSA IS SLEEPING TILL NOON DAY!!! I can't do this gettting up everyday at 6:30 thing. I used to get up at 6am every morning in highschool for orchestra. I can't do it anymore. It's not so horrible on occasions to get up early for work, but every stinkin' day????? And what is with this Dude working late all the time thing? Melissa is not responsible for the old stupid people eating dinner! I can't do that! I'm totally out of the loop on American Idol. This is fine cuz it's just the auditions, but once the good stuff starts, will it continue to be this way? I freakin' hope not!!!! Thanks for letting me complain. Oh, I saw this on a blog of a friend of a frined of mine and the resutls were hysterical, so here ya go!

BOOBS!
Melissa

Alright

I feel kinda good today. I would say I'm even happy, but I dare not admit that because I have to go home and deal with stupid people and then I won't be happy, so why bother. Wow, what a state I'm in :) I'm feeling kinda colorful as well. Yesterday I bought all of the new shades of Sally Henson.....nailpolish in gold bottles. Walgreens carries them. They are selling for $5-$6 but they are on sale for $3.19 currently and bff had one so I got them all cuz I was impressed. It's a much better price then paying the evil $7-$8 for OPI Summer shades with the rainbows in them. I really didn't want all those shades and I knew I would have noplace to store them, so I bought a new caboodle as well ;) IT'S BLUE!!! In the store I thought it was a nice purple color but I'm thrilled to say walgreens has bad lighting :) I have a lot of nailpolish already and I had just purchased 10 more bottles lol so I didn't think the new caboodle was going to hold all of them BUT IT DID with the exception of one bottle which is small and got thrown in randomly. Whatever. Some bottles had to be put in upside down but who cares :) I will probably be throwing some old polish out soon enough.
I have been very musical lately. If anyone likes to watch the Tony Awards for Broadway stuff, I am listening to NINE with Antonio Banderas, which just totally rocks, and Flower Drum Song with Lea Salonga and other kewl ppl. I highly recommend them. On the other end of the spectrum, in the future I am looking to invest in some System of a Down cds. Perhaps by mere copying off other ppls, maybe I'll flat out steal them off Kazaa, or *gasp* I may buy them!

This lemonade gum isn't that good for those of you that chew carefree koolers. I like the berry and I'm sure that the mint, watermelon, and citrus are good as well.
Melissa

update 2

so today hasn't been much fun. mom and i had a huge fight about going to the store. i was fine with going for her (cuz she re-injured her knee), but then she wanted a favor. her drink. i wasn't all about buying it. we exchanged words like "i could push you off that chair, don't act so tough." and "go ahead, i'll call 911 and the cops will come." i finally just took a step back and listened to us say these things. that's insane. so this evening isn't shaping up very well.
melissa

Update

How Your Attitude Ranks

Your Attitude is Better than 70% of the PopulationIf you scored... 80-100: You've got a winner attitude. You're always optimistic and cheery. Your personality will get you far in life. 60-79: You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you. 40 - 59: You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones. 20 - 39: You have an average attitude. You take the good and bad in life as they come. Though sometimes you could use a little more good. 0-19: You have a negative attitude. You tend to see the dark side of every situation. Free ice cream? No thanks, it will just make you fat!

How's" Your Attitude?

So I have been a little happier lately. Things have been semi crazy though. Friday I worked 8a-4p, then bff slept over and on Saturday we went to Orland Park mall. Going on I-80 it only took 25 minutes, it was awesome!!!!! The Disney store there rocks! It's got about 5 sections to it! It's a smaller version of the Orlando one lol. The new store in New York is something I must see before I die, 3 stories of disney crap! I think it's called The World of Disney store or something. ANYWAY, at this mall I got a kewl shirt from the Gap, but it is too small, imagine that. I got a sheer cotton body shirt thing but I got it in extra small. It makes my boobs disappear, and it took me 22 years to grow these dumb things ;) I also went to Vicky's Secret and got some Strawberries and Champaigne spray. Very happy. It was regular priced but yet cheaper than Bath and Body Works. How messed up is that. Although at some point I would like to try B&Bs new scent Black Raspberry Vanilla.
We came home from the mall just fine without getting lost. No major disasters or quotes that I Can recall. I ended up eating dinner with her and her brother. Pizza I think. This was the night that we got attacked by the evil snow that made driving impossible. The northeast took it worse than we did. I didn't think it was that bad. I got home from bff's ...
...wait I have this all wrong, bff slept over Thursday, then we went mall Friday, then we ate at her house, and now I"m back where I was a moment ago. Pizza for dinner, then a game of monopoly with her bro and cousin. I got home around 12:30 and got up for work Sat morning at 7a to be at work at 8a working till 4p. There we go. After working all day long I decided to go sleep at bff's cuz I was a retard and forgot about stuff, so I slept over there, and we were asleep by Midnight lol.
Now yesterday was Sunday so I should be correct. I woke up on bff's couch very very sick. I think I had a minor migrane. I have no clue what caused it. I was buried under blankets like ususal, then woke up and saw light and my head exploded!!! I made an attempt to eat, but later that backfired. I was only affected by light and smell, not noise. I'm sure noise didn't help though. We were blasting System of a Down real loud and I was ok, but the lights and the smells made me nauseaus, so I curled up back on the couch. Dude was gonna pick me up at 2:30 and I heard him call and leave a message. Driving home was nutz cuz of sunlight and cigarette smoke with no windows down :P Got home, went upstairs, puked up everything I had eaten the past 24 hours semi-violently, and since I was freezing, passed out in my bed. Mom kept harassing me about food, so I threatened to barf on her. Me so nice :) 4:15 came and it felt like 5 minutes, and I woke to mom screaming that Jewel was on the phone. Shirley was calling asking me to come in that moment. I was thinking 'fuck you, no, go away' but the universe had called off and I needed to shower so I told her I would be in at 6. She said "I guess I'll have to take that then." I felt so powerful :)
Work went well. I closed with JP. He rocks. He couldn't find candy tags and I knew from doing them last week that there were a million that needed to be done. There were like 10 things needing to be switched on 10 registers, oh brother, that didn't get completely finished. I don't care to be honest. Next week there are a million more things, but I"m gonna start them sooner. I had a massive packet with a collage due this morning at 8:30 so with a one liter of Mt. Dew in hand, I made an even bigger mess in my room than it currently was. I was home by 12:30 and up till 4:30 doing that. I kinda like doing that. I'm a nightowl and its all good. Mom saw my light on at 4 but she thinks I was just evicting Oliver. Sure,mom, sure. She would have shot me if she knew the truth.
Once I finally finished my homework....OH NO I HAVE A RELIGION TEST TODAY AHHHHH HOPEFULLY HE'S SNOWED IN....ugga, by the time I finished the evil packet I was all hyper and stayed up another hour listening to music then passed out. With basically an hour till I had to get up for school, I just kinda curled up in a ball and napped :) I got up really well but I'm still working with Mt. Dew to keep me alive. Ok so now that you want to kill me for writing this huge thing (and thanks for reading), I will leave u alone. OSCAR NOMS TOMORROW!!! Pray for Mr. Depp to get something :)
Dude, Johnny Carson died, what the hell...at least this will take us away from the Iraq crap.
Melissa

Classes

Aloha. Classes have started again. I should be in one right now, but it was cancelled. Here goes nothing.
Monday and Wednesday
I start at 8:30-9:45a with Business Perspectives. This isn't an actual business class, this is a class about you and what you like. Once that is determined, then you can find your perfect career...ha ha ha.
I am free between 10-3 then start back at 4-5:15 with Religion class. The teacher looks like Wilford Brimley the former quaker oats guy who is now a diabetic ;) I spelled that wrong, but it's funny so I'm leaving it :) This dude is real quiet so it puts ppl to sleep. I sit next to a very antsy girl and she irritates me, SIT STILL DAMMIT!!!
From 5:30-6:45p I have Philosophy class. It's a 100 level and so far it's been really easy. That's mainly cuz we don't learn anything. The teacher is really kewl and nutz and, amazingly, straight, married with a 10 mo baby girl. He isn't used to our kind of group. He usually gets the kids that just write what he says and look at him without challenging him. We drive him nutz lol. He loves us. He writes one thing on the board and the whole class goes BALISTIC over things as simple as atoms! WTF!!! Yesterday we discussed reality, well discussed is a rough word, he wrote something down, the girl in the back went nutz because that doesn't include people with mental disabillity, and that's just unfair of him to say. Ppl are all nutz. This teacher takes it very well I'm impressed, maybe cuz he craves the bickering. He really needs to learn to loose his kewl once in a while lol.
Tues. and Thurs.
Starting again at 8:30 I have Intro to Business. This really is a business class. I really like it for a few reasons. The teacher is mostly kewl but she does strike me as a bit of a bitch if u get on her bad side. Her teachering style is Mastery Learning. This means that when we take tests, we get them back, then have one opportunity to make corrections on the ones we missed, and re-submit the test for the best grades possible. The room is kewl as well because it has long tables instead of small desks, but yet it is not a lecture hall.
Again I have a break from 10-3 then at 4-5:15 I have Human Geography. Its about people and locations and stats, and map packets, like 9th grade. Ugga. Teacher is really kewl and passionate about her subject. She works at a middle school during the day I think.

Well I am gonna go. The new ppl at this computer lab are asses and they don't like me so I quit. I wasn't being very loud, bitch. Mom's gonna be mad cuz I hung up on her. Grrrrr. Mube houbrny

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test test test blogger is evil...

dream

last night i had a scary dream...ok not scary but still...

i dreampt that i was at the munster jewel and made a purchase in osco (btw,it's called a zombie, the stuff next to the hurricane.) anyway apparently they got a new bitch over there and she was ringing ppl. short mexican chick with short hair. she looked evil. there was a 5 year old boy in line ahead of me and he was holding a bottle of hard liquor, don't remember what. i yelled at him and told him that he wouldn't be able to buy that and he yelled back that she, probably meaning the new chick, would let him. well, he goes to make his purchase, and the osco chick looks me directly in the eye and rings this little kid's liquor purchase up!!!!! i made my purchase at the service desk while attempting to bitch at gale about what had happenned, but megan was in my way trying to get her schedule :) i guess the little boy was the new lady's son and he was born with alchohol dependancy, but dear god that's ridiculous!!!!!
good thing it was just a dream!!!!!

underline and HELP!!!!

guhduhbuhduhduh!!!! ok ppl i need help. i want to get a kewl cursor for my blog with things dangling from it. i found one for my friend's blog and i want one for me. i'm just not sure how the hell to go about getting or making one. i'm lazy and don't want to download, just to steal ;) I'm a pain in the ass, I admit it. I made the attempt to download some stuff today but then i don't know how to apply it to here cuz it just wants me to use it on my computer. i made an attepmt to learn basic java stuff but it looks like ur gonna have to go to college to learn that, and that would give me a purpose in life and why the hell should i bother having a purpose???? i'm too busy sponging of ppl :)

ok while i was downloading stuff today i did something that i don't get and installed a toolbar in my internet explorer that is now causing shit to get underlined when u are reading and the underlined part is a link to a website that has the underlined word. so at the bottom of this blog i had written about a dream i had about the DISNEY STORE and a PINK DRESS and those words were underlined and it took me to the disney website and it was searching for pink dresses lol. I think the toolbar thing was something about myfree.com or something. i don't know. help me ppl, help me whhaaaaahhhh :)

ok so your assignment is to
1 - help melissa undo what she did so things aren't links anymore
2 - help melissa get kewl java cursor stuff
3 - help melissa, just help melissa lol

Tsuami

I'm so addicted to this tsunami telethon. Clay will be doing something at some point, but I'm too lazy to wait. I'm going to bff's and we are gonna hang with Meg. Last night was awesome. We got liquor and Melissa drank like crazy. Here is the quote that sums it all up. bff drove me home this morning so I could go to work for 6 hours (aaahhhh!!!) and I said to her:
"Thanks for being all host-y and being awesome last night."
bff's response:
"Thanks for getting drunk and peeing on my chair."
We almost crashed the car laughing :D
It wasn't exactly my fault...well yes it was, but no it wasn't. bff just wanted to make strawberry daquiris. I saw a blue bicardi hurricane thing. We bought that. Rum is in it and all it needed was ice. I drank 3 glasses, I'm not quite sure. Then bff decided for some reason that we needed to do shots of tequila. She mixed it with Dew. I think that was her whole excuse lol. She wanted Dew lol. I did 2.5 shots without even feeling it. Before I knew it bff was pouring them overflowing and I couldn't feel my face and was warm. Then I couldn't feel the rest of my body, barely took the top layer off the 3rd shot and almost gagged to death. I was chasing all the shots with more hurricane. I was happy and someone said something and apparently I thought it was hysterical, and pissed myself stupid laughing AND NEVER REALIZED IT!!!!! I soaked my work jeans and undies that I should have just trashed. Peed all over the kitchen chair. Luckily it's wood lol. bff cleaned and disenfected it while I locked myself in the bathroom realizeing what I had done. Very embarrassed. This prompted bff to get the video camera out. She was hardly drunk at all cuz she was dealing with so much chaos going on. The dog was out, her underage brother and 3 of his friends were around, I was peeing on her furniture, Megan was out of it and freezing cold and having a fit about that, etc :) I just know that I kept lookin at the clock every 10 minutes. Nutzness. I love bff :)
Melissa

Let me fall...

I'm listening to Josh Groban. I think I will post the lyrics to this song.
Let me fall
Let me climb
There's a moment when fear
And dreams must collide

Someone I am
Is waiting for courage
The one I want
The one I will become
Will catch me
So let me fall
If I must fall
I won't heed your warnings
I won't hear them

Let me fall
If I fall
Though the phoenix may
Or may not rise
I will dance so freely
Holding on to no one
You can hold me only
If you too will fall
Away from all these
Useless fears and chains

Someone I am
Is waiting for my courage
The one I want
The one I will become
Will catch me
So let me fall
If I must fall
I won't heed your warnings
I won't hear

Let me fall
If I fall
There's no reason
To miss this one chance
This perfect moment

Just let me fall

Sore on Sunday

I finally made it to Sunday. I'm very sore :( Last night bff and I went to see Finding Neverland. I had seen it before with Megan, but really loved it so I saw it again. I'm hoping it does well at Golden Globes and Oscars. The theater we saw it at had a very high screen and so I began getting a neck ache. Then I spent the night at bff's and we were playing games and I was sitting kinda on my side with my head tilted to see the screen straight, so the neck pain got worse. Then I slept with extra pillows all night long that were at an angle, so I can't move my head today lol. Ever since it turned Sunday I have been dragging my heals to have time stop. I don't want to do this school thing tomorrow.
Melissa

Saturday...

Could this day end. This should be sunday, it really should. I need a nap. Out of nowhere I'm exhausted. Probably cuz I've been so nutz over nothing. My schedule for next week for work turned out fine. I got weekend hours. Shirley was in a fantastic mood and said hello to everyone this morning except for me. I swear...this woman grrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm too tired to think. Got up at 6:51, did the banana thing, went to work, drank some dew on break, went home early. I was being creative and complicated and Dude took me away from that so I got cranky. We went to lunch (mom, dad, cranky creative complicated kid) and ate too much food too fast. Then we went to this little shop that proceeds go to hospice. I walked in there, moved my head a little, saw the whole room, and was ready to leave. However I saw a piano, so I examined the room more. There is some nice furniture there. We were slowly making plans to redecorate our house. Then mom bought some little crap thing and while in the process of checking out, had a fight with a lady trying to buy the vase she wanted lol. Only my family, folks :) We came home around 3 and I've been messin around on the computer and getting called by bff a million times to tell me things I don't need to know and ask me questions I can't answer :)

Mom is now harrassing me about 1,2, buckle my shoe. She wants to know the rhyme and I'm being evil and not helping. She got through 6 and picked up her sticks, but then she said "7,8, start screaming at ppl in hospice" and I lost it and had to run away to blog :)
Melissa

Whah

I'm addicted to my Miss Saigon soundtrack. I've spent the whole night awake and stressing. Very glad its daytime. I was so sure Shirley was gonna kick my ass and the whole world would be mad at me. I hope I do get more evening hours at work cuz I can't work with Shirley anymore. She thinks I'm completely incompetant. Today she kept interfering with me helping customers and the customers were telling her I was fine. Ha ha ha ha. I did fuck something up semi majorly but she didn't bother me about it. I am dreading tomorrow seeing the new schedule. She's gonna do something wrong and then I'm gonna have to talk to her about it and oh my god...I don't want to deal with it. Pimples are popping up everywhere. I wish this dude in my life would go away. I was thinking of him one way but he's really another way and I'm ready to drop him and move on. I feel bad but dammit leave me alone. I'm so just....bleh, grr, ugh. Now I have Coke so I'm a bit happier. I haven't been caffinated since I got sick and that's why I'm still 94lbs :) Oh well. Time to go to walgreens.

You Are a Golden Retriever Puppy

Tolerant, fun-loving, and patient.You are eager to please - and attached to your frisbee.

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

Quote!!!

Last night I was at the dinnertable with the family yelling about stuff. I had big blue vat cup with me and it was full of caffinated 7up, ya know the green stuff? Well since the cup is essentially bigger than my hand and it was extremely full, I couldn't get a good grip on it. Mom was screaming at Nana and I went to pick the cup to get a drink and it just popped out of my hand and a liter of upsidedown 7up rolled all over the table. Soaked the whole tablecloth, and drenched mom's sweater and pants by the time it was done dripping everywhere. Mom better stop screaming at people or I could put blood in that cup and spill it all over her and that wouldn't come out ;)

Dude hates that cup and his quote of the day was:
"Jesus, Melissa! You did it again huh? Had your own Tsunami huh? You could wash away tourists with that thing!"

Coke

I'm making an attempt to drink coke. I seem to be keeping food down and most liquid in me. Most...I don't know what is still escaping, but something is. Tummy still feels majorly wierd. OOO Hey! Look! Pics of me! oh damn I can't put them up. ok well last night i had a naughty dream about the disney store turning partly into a sex shop. I got a princess aurora toy...yeah toy...but it had a pink dress but for the kind of toy it was the dress color didn't really matter ;) Ok on that note I must shower.
Melissa

AND A CRAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!

So it's 2005. The whole house is sick. After 3 days of being very very sick with what we now think has been food poisioning, Dude has lost 10 lbs. I didn't have it as bad but I lost 4 lbs in 24 hours and I'm still not keeping water in me very well. I last weighed in at 94 lbs, which I was told was my weight when I was 14 lol. Alright, here comes a gross story for ya, if u have a weak tummy don't read......after my first night of being insanely sick I didn't want food and stuck to liquids and sleeping. Finally by the end of the day I wanted flavor so I had some jello. I swished it around in my mouth before I swallowed, reducing it to water. Well there were a few times when I didn't do that. I had the whole martini glass full of jello after really not having anything that had stayed in my body for an hour. I went into the bathroom cuz I just knew I was going to puke or reverse puke. As gross as this was, it was awesome cuz it was blue jello. The point of this story was that it came up completely through my nose, bwahahahahahaha :) I loved it :) It's so much easier to puke through your nose.
Ok gross stories over, Dude is finally recovering, he's very tired. I am doing better but on new years eve was when I was the sickest and when the above story with blue jello occurred. Guess I was shooting off my own fireworks, Melissa style! That day I was supposed to work 11-5 at Jewel and I got so sick I couldn't deal with it and I got on the phone and started panicing and screaming at my managers lol. Poor Chris always has to deal with me when I'm sick. I won't even begin to describe what was wrong. I threw up a few times in front of ppl among other horrific things that were going on with my body. Guess that was another gross story. Sowwy.
Me recovering, still not eating very well. Mom is sick now with puking, Nana...well we dont' care if she's sick cuz she's always sick and never does anything to help herself.
Ok peace out 2005!
Melissa