I'm sitting here a year later still wondering how the hell all that happened. I am learning new information about a few things which really would have helped me out last year. However, hearing it from someone else, when I couldn't see it coming myself, probably wasn't going to help me be in any better position right now. I can't believe I saw things the way I did. I saw it all wrong. It wasn't happening the way I saw it. I was being me and expecting other people to just put up with it when their lives were on the up and up. There's no reason for that. How could I? Jeez! And I want to be in public relations? I don't know why! Someone told me that if I didn't do something, their life might fall apart and I refused because my ego got in the way. I'm so stupid. It took me a year to have this fully hit me. I made it all about me. I always manage to. I'm so sorry. Good grief! I hope you read this. I hope you still think of some part of our friendship fondly. It really is all my fault. You deserve better. I hope you are getting that.
Melissa
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