Well this isn't going to end well....

Well Uncle Bob is lying in the hospital dying. We still don't know what the fuck happened. He looks soooo bad. Is it so terrible to think that its for the best? I mean, he's about out of money and we don't like his caretaker, chris anyway.

Poor Dude is also sick. He is both vomiting and having reverse bulimia, if you catch my drift :( I'm fine! Survived another semester, went out drinking with Megan, came home, did Zumba! Feel fine and exhausted :)

Hope everyone's year is wrapping up well....at least better than mine!

Melissa

How stupid was I?

I'm sitting here a year later still wondering how the hell all that happened. I am learning new information about a few things which really would have helped me out last year. However, hearing it from someone else, when I couldn't see it coming myself, probably wasn't going to help me be in any better position right now. I can't believe I saw things the way I did. I saw it all wrong. It wasn't happening the way I saw it. I was being me and expecting other people to just put up with it when their lives were on the up and up. There's no reason for that. How could I? Jeez! And I want to be in public relations? I don't know why! Someone told me that if I didn't do something, their life might fall apart and I refused because my ego got in the way. I'm so stupid. It took me a year to have this fully hit me. I made it all about me. I always manage to. I'm so sorry. Good grief! I hope you read this. I hope you still think of some part of our friendship fondly. It really is all my fault. You deserve better. I hope you are getting that.
Melissa

20 Positive Things About Me!

I was given an assignment last week to write down 20 positive things about myself. Once I stopped laughing I told her that I would be unlikely to do this because I highly doubted I could come up with 3 that I meant. Turns out I came up with 4! 1 - I can sing! 2 - Sometimes I'm pretty 3 - I write well 4 - I am smarter than I give myself credit for...aka I have decent enough instincts, now I need to trust them more!

What a lovely surprise!

Well! I have been thinking for a while that I would love to go have a spa day. I would really love to have my back worked on. On Tuesday my poor Chrysler Concorde named Grape went to have work done because I got rear ended in the blizzard. Tonight I got a phone call telling me I have 2 free massages coming to me. I still don't fully understand all this but apparently this place that called get's public phone numbers of people who have been in auto accidents and offers them free massages. "free"...I'm waiting to see what the hell the catch is, but I'm pleased because my back has been hurting for, like, since I've been born lol.
Melissa

Being told I"m wrong sucks

Well I spoke with miss Carol Briggs this week and told her I was pissed because something went wrong. Someone didn't do something I assumed they would do and I got pissed and wanted to blow their head off. Apparently I was completely wrong in feeling this way and I was promptly told exactly that. BAM! YOU"RE WRONG! Oh, I am? I don't think so! NOPE, YOU'RE WRONG!

*poutpoutpout*

Apparently, this is hysterical to someone :) Shuddup :)

Weeping

"Weeping" - Josh Groban & Ladysmith Black Mambazo

I knew a man who lived in fear
It was huge, it was angry,
It was drawing near.
Behind his house a secret place
Was the shadow of the demon
He could never face.

He built a wall of steel and flame
And men with gun to keep it tame
Then standing back he made it plain
That the nightmare would never ever rise again
But the fear and the fire and the guns remain.

It doesn't matter now, it's over anyhow
He tells the world that it's sleeping
But as the night came round
I heard its lonely sound
It wasn't roaring, it was weeping
It wasn't roaring, it was weeping.

And then one day the neighbors came
They were curious to know about the smoke and flame
They stood around outside the wall
But of course there was nothing to be heard at all
"My friends," he said, "We've reached our goal
The threat is under firm control.
As long as peace and order reign
I'll be damned if I can see a reason to explain
Why the fear and the fire and the guns remain"

It doesn't matter now, it's over anyhow
He tells the world that it's sleeping
But as the night came round
I heard its lonely sound
It wasn't roaring, it was weeping
It wasn't roaring, it was weeping
Say ah, say ah, say ah
Say ah, say ah, say aaahhh

New classes, day 1

Well today kinda made my head spin. 1st day back in classes. I set my alarm for 7:30 and was mostly ready to leave an hour later. Made it out the door about 8:35 for my 9:30 class at the stupid Academic Learning Center in Merrillville/Crown Point. I actually really enjoyed that. Maybe because it was early and I only had to contend with a little bit of crap. This 9:30 class is my Intro To Media (the class I dropped last semester.) The teacher is really kinda kewl. She worked in PR and used to work for the Museum of Science and Industry. She has good energy.

Right after that class I get in the car and leave to go to see my counsilor. That did't happen today thank goodness. Instead of that< i just went home. That was nice. Dude fed me pizza. At 2:00 I had my second class at Purdue Cal Hammond. It was spanish. This woman doesn't look spanish, and she's about as white and midwestern as you get. Her spanish is intense though. She just threw us right into it and I was like "whoa, i got about 4 words of the 94 you just said, slow down." She's going to be awesome and fun I think but I feel like 70% of that class had her last semester so I'm not in on the joke or something. I do have a friend in the class from last semester but I'm still worried. I left the class with my head spinning.

As I was driving home, I almost forgot to do my last chore of the day. I had to run to Carson's to pick up the booklets for the Carson's Community Day event on Feb 26th. They are $5 and go to a great cause. We currently have 50 books to sell so buy buy buy!!!!

Melissa

Welcome To 2011 - The Best Year Of My Life!!!!!

Yeah 2010, down with u!!!

Welcome 2011!!!!!

This year I vow to not buy any bath and body works products. I already have 2 years worth in my possession. :)

So far this has been the best year of my life...or at least that's what i'm sayin' :)

Ya want a neat song to check out? You can youtube "The best thing about me is you" by ricky martin featuring joss stone.

Yup, 2011 is lookin damn good. I can't wait for summer. We are going to Florida for nearly a month which includes a cruise :D