Ugga!

Aloha! I think I might be happy. I"m not sure. Maybe I'm just well rested. Today for the most part went really well. Dude has been massively sick. Shits and vomiting for about 24 hours now. I hope I get to take a shower at some point before work tomorrow. So yes today went well. I stayed up till 3am this morning chatting/arguing with ppl online so I was apparently tired. I woke up around 7 to the sound of Dude yelling at mom to call him off his double today. very sick puppydude. well i turned over and went back to sleep till mom woke me at 11:30. she likes to embellish, so i thought she was kidding. nope. i had to be at work at noon! had i not eaten i might have made it on time. i was 5 minutes late and ppl were not happy. oops. work went pretty well and i got break on time. then as i got back from break my boss shirley who i hate and think hates me as well was busy with customers so i leaned against the desk and waited. she hissed "will you stand up!" at me and i wanted to sit down out of obstinance, but i obeyed and did what she wanted. bitch.

well anyway the whole house is fuckin' stinky and eggy smelling right now so i'm going to megan's www.xanga.com/shaniafanatic to shower. i work at 11-5 tomorrow.
melissa

end of the year

well it's getting to be the end of the year. as usual melissa has no plans. i'll be stuck at home with all the people having diahrrea. then at midnight it will be family hug time. kill me now. i would rather be out in chicago with the loons. i am going to make 2005 as colorful as possible. i also have set my goals to be as destructive as possible, and have fantastic sex ha ha ha ha ha not possible. why r ppl nutz.
melissa

Ha ha!!!!

Me devil! Me make cookies that nana can't eat :) Hahahaha. I love seeing ppl suffer. ;) So I haven't heard from this one new guy I met a while ago and I'm kinda mad so I'm gonna see what's up. I did manage to hear from the dude I wrote about a few posts back. He was year a year ago dec 19 and his wife beat him up. Well I got an email and apparently, he had another child with her. Kyle Logan C. It actually is making me mad that he is still with her but hopefully she is better. He's such a good guy and he's determined that the word marraige doesn't mean divorce, but dear god! What an idiot. Whatever. On a brighter note I did hear from Kelly my mommy from ALpha Phi. She's alive and well. She's gonna be a cancer nurse. I happy she wrote me. Me go away now. Tummy!
Melissa Devil

PRESENTS!!!!

I GOT PRESENTS I GOT PRESENTS I GOT PRESENTS I GOT PRESENTS :) bff got my digital camera which I am currently in a fight with, plus video tapes for recording stuff AND I DISCOVERED THEY ARE 8 HOURS WHICH ROCKS THANKS BFF *knocks u to the ground and tackles and licks you* Megz got me Clay's Christmas Cd and Clay's 2005 calendar which I can't spell. Thanks megs! *has already knocked megz to the ground and tackled her but owes her licking*

So Santy came early. Technically it's still Christmas Eve cuz I haven't gone to bed yet and for some reason we all decided to exchange gifts. Oh I should probably mention mom is home from the hospital. She shouldn't be but whatever. Dude decided to give her part of her present tonight cuz we didn't think she would be home tonight and he wanted to make her feel better about staying over one more night. So he was going to give her a necklace with a heart shaped gold thing with diamonds and rubies, her birth stone. He went ahead and did that anyway and mom being mom reacted with her typical thank you - "it's not what i wanted...it's pretty though...can I exchange it?" Dude has been hearing that for 30 years so whatever. Then mom and I gave Dude his underwear :) It's what he wanted. Underwear, jewlery, underwear, jewelery. Yea that's equal ;)

We decided I should just open my gift and I was so thrilled. I GOT BASICALLY ALL THE DVD'S I ASKED FOR - FAMILY GUY VOLUMES 1&2, PRINCE & ME, AND ABOUT A BOY. I asked for The Crucible as well but I don't see that very much so there ya go. So now I"m really feelin bad cuz I got Dude underwear and he just spent over $100 on me. I haven't gotten mommy anything cuz...I was gonna get her a bottle of vodka when I thought it was funny...then I realized it wasn't funny. She would like it but I would just get pissed and ug. So she gets nothing.

Dude goes upstairs and comes down with BONUS PRESENTS for me and mom. Mom got the necklace she wanted with a gold chain and 2 cirlcle things one gold one silver and diamond. She was thrilled...but it's small lol. Can't win with mommy. I got a diamond necklace also. It's a 3 diamond thing and they are in a verticle line and it's silver, well white gold. It's small diamonds but I'm happy :) Mom has the real thing and she doesn't like hers but she gets mad when I wear it lol. I'm happy. The chain is real delicate otherwise I would wear it to bed. I'M SO HAPPY!!!!

MEOWY CWISTMAS!!!!
Melissa & Sitch
Oliver&Cali
Mom&Dude.

Crappy Christmas to all

Aloha. It's turning out to be a crappy Christmas. Mom's in the hospital and I hope she stays there for a while so she can just chill out. She's safe from me and Nana and everything. Dude comes up there and stays most of the day. I can't do that. I hate hospitals. They stress me out like crazy. So mom's in her retreat and bff and her family went to their Kentucky retreat and their Christmas is turing out even crappier than ours lol. Their pipes are about to burst, their driveway is nearly impassible, cuz it's long and windy cuz they are out in the woods, their boat dock is sinking, and their dog is probably chewing on everything he can get his teeth on :) I have to go work now. That's a crappy thing too cuz our boss is an asshole. Every year that I have worked at that store we have been able to wear nice clothes for the one lousy day of the year. This year "it's not a dress up day." Booooo! I hope she's not here next year...I hope she's not year next month. Ohwell Nana is making the house stink so I better get the hell out.
Melissa

Unsure

I'm unsure. I don't know who or what to trust anymore. Senses and people are deceiving. It's snowing. I went to see The Phantom of the Opera. It was good yet bad. Cold feet.

dream

last might i had a very disturbing dream...we were at Munster high school but it wasn't mhs but it was, but whatever. I was in class and a teacher opened our door (really it was linda from osco) and she said "students with insurance, go to your administrators office." she then shut the door and wento the next door to say the same thing. you could just tell that it was code for 'lookout ppl are in the building with guns.' nobody could really make heads or tails out of what the instructions meant though. did it mean go to the counsilor, get out of the building, go to the other building, what did it mean? then i saw dr. bartlett in the cafeteria and he ignored me. grrrrr. i woke up at 5:30 to the sounds of things crashing and ppl yelling.
i was supposed to meet with a guy today and i had the alarm set for 7am to get up and shower and be there at 10, but as u can see it's past 10 and i'm here rather than there. he got called to drive to the suburbs for work. grrrr. maybe we'll meet up later. i wanna go sleep.
2 days ago i exchanged presents with bff and megan. i got my digital camera from bff and pretzels and fudge as well as blank video tapes for one tree hill and stuff. she gave me a new mousepad as well. i got her futurama season 1 dvd. Megan got me clay aiken's x-mas cd and clays 2005 calendar. i was so excited i knocked her over, tackled her and probably would have licked her if i could have...somehow i really don't remember thanking bff at all. oops. THANK YOU BFF.
Melissa

Icicles

My tears feel like frozen icicles on my face. Dude screamed at me for no good reason. See mom fell down today and killed her knee and her head. Nana has been going berserk all day. Dude came home and screamed at me for no good reason. Eric keeps driving me nutz yet he's being so nice. Very confusing. I want to meet someone awesome tomorrow and the world seems to be against me! Grrrr.
Melissa

One year ago...

It's been one year since Kevin, Shanda Lei, and Ian came to Munster. Shanda Lei found herself in the Lake County Jail for 6 days for domestic abuse before Kevin finally bailed her out. I've been thinking about it constantly. I still have the pictures of the disaster in my mind like it happenned yesterday. I hope they are all safe...yes all of them.

I feel guilty that I made Megan drive home in this snow. As far as Munster goes, it stopped snowing long ago, but it could pick up again. In some spots there is 20+ inches and I-90 got closed down for 2 hours to let plows go through. Poor Meg. Sowwy. I wrote in purple just for you :)

Melissa

More shit to talk about

So yesterday I wrote about Nana fartin' around at the dinner table. Today I just may as well talk about the shit that happenned literally at Jewel. Apparently, somebody got chrome's disease all over our store. The fucking store manager made a bagger clean it up. If she can walk her ass over there to show a bagger, why the hell doesn't she do it herself??? Cleaning human waste off the floor is certainly not a bagger's job.

Dinner

Nana farted at the dinner table! Nasty! She stood up to get some french fries, and this long, loud gurgle came from her. I swore it was her stomach, but then the smell hit me. OMG!!!!! She was embarrassed and mom made a huge deal out of it. However, Dude did it later and nobody said anything. I wanted to have a big production about it...

Work is going better. I had 8 hours today! I almost didn't get my frist break because Chris is a bitch and hates me. Whatever her problem is I don't know. I let her know. I was like 'you know i have 8 hours right?' She was in the process of letting the people that would have relieved me for my break go to other registers. She's just an ass. Shirley yelled at me about self checkout again today. I hate her as a manager, but actually as a person she's kinda nice. You just have to seperate the two...kinda like our new associate front end manager. That's right folks, we have a new person again. Judy is on medical leave till the first of the year so she won't be in at at all, and she's basically stepped down beyond that to be a part time person, so I don't really understand that. Nancy is our new associate manager. I worked with her for the first time Wed. and I was not impressed. She was really impersonal and hard if that makes sense. Today I worked with her and we actually talked. She asked me how to do something lol. She doesn't know any better ;) Apparently she's from a store in Tinley Park. They have the new computer system so she must be at a new or remodeled store. I kept running out of money in my drawer so she kept rescuing me. She's really nice. I wonder how long it will take before she becomes as bad as all the others. I did notice something very interesting today. The phone would ring and ring and ring and nobody would answer, mainly because we were all busy and Nancy was actually working with the customers rather than hiding in the office, bookroom, or whatever else that managers do that causes them to magically vanish at times of chaos and disaster. I was stunned. ALL HAIL NANCY!
Melissa

Fantasy

So many ways for Melissa to not do her work, so little time. While at work today I was seriously considering opening up a resuraunt in Santa Fe but now I think I might just swing on a star...what do you think? *dances*
Melissa

And 6 tries later...

...I finally get to make my entry.

I SAW AN ASS PURSE TODAY! I was so excited :) At first it was just another little blue leather purse next to all the bustee baskets (boost-ee-ay). Well anyway I saw this blue leather purse and it had 2 pockets in front like the backside of a pair of jeans and I couldn't get the pockets open so I turned the purse around and opened the zipper at the top. I noticed the other side of the purse had a zipper and a silver chain belt and realized i was looking at the ass of a pair of jeans! IT'S AN ASS PURSE! I wanted to buy it just to be obnoxious to my father. The butt part of the jeans was even padded ;)

School is wrapping up. This week is finals in school and at work I have more than 20 hours this week. Today I ran from Walmart to Walmart looking for some ridiculous jar opener. Whatever. That's where I saw the above mentioned ass purse. I am wearing lots of blue today and I"m warm and happy. Meeting lots of new ppl as well. Gotta go. Eating chicken shits for dinner :0 ) Yumyum!
Melissa

Chicago

Well today was a bit of a disaster. It was my fault really. I thought that since we were downtown we could invite Caroline and really there was nothing wrong with that decision. It just got a little crazy at the end. To be honest, I didn't think we would see her, she was waiting on someone to come and take her bunk beds and then she called and said she was going to meet us at watertower. She finally did but bff and I were feeding our faces with Auntie Anne's Pretzels so we were full of food and ready to shop. With me and bff, that was dinner kinda lol. Well we did some shopping at Borders and all got something I think. I told bff I bought family guy on dvd but that was a bold face lie :) We were not interested in food but we started to figure out that we needed to take the 8p train back rather than the 10p so we began going into meltdown panic mode about food. All I really had to offer was "I want Italian!" We ate at what was a Portillo's with a Barillos or something in it. The place itself was really kewl but it was like giong to the mall and ordering food at the food court, only less organized and more panicy. It was decorated like RENT so that was like being in the show lol. I'm just nutz I know. Anyway, by the time I got to eat, it was bascially time to go. I would have at least eaten my garlic bread that I got special, but my coke spilled all over it when I was trying to ssssqqqqqquuuuuueeeeeezzzzzzzeeeeee in the isle and not spill my tray on people. Could it be any more stupidly set up? I had pasta which was dumb cuz it was just the noodles with a bit of sauce on the top, much like a food court or school lunch. Grrrr. Other than that disaster of being rushed it was a good day. I imagined in my head that if I had been on some sort of date, I would have somehow found this all romantic or something because the actual eating space was neat and the walk to the station was very refreshing with all the lights *happy sigh*.

On an insane note we went to the Disney store today and I bought NOTHING!!! Not a single Stitch!!!! There was a sale going on Buy 1 Get 1 Free! There were these huge Stitches that were half the size of me and I"m 4'9" and they were fluffy and covered in hair/fur. They were only $40 so if you split the cost of 1 it would have been $20 for 2 of them. Can you believe that somehow I wasn't interested and managed to talk bff out of it???? What the hell is wrong with me???? Well, I'll tell ya lol. I thought it looked like an evil stitch, his hair was all everywhere and he looked mean and he looked like Harry Monster on Sesame Street. Very unhappy.
Melissa

so blah

Wellllllll I guess I'm excited. Semester is winding down, Melissa is going to fail life, and I met someone new. I do'nt think it will come to much, but I"m so hoping it will. I think I'm kinda rid of Tony for now. I'm glad cuz he was making me crazy. I was supposed to hear from him around Thanksgiving, but then he never called back. I left him a friendly message and he still hasn't called. Whatever.
Yesterday I found out that my manager who I view as evil (Shirley) is a former schoolteacher. Why the hell couldn't she have just stayed doing that job. She's nice to talk to and stuff but jeeez. I have really got to take things one at a time cuz there is a lot going on and I can't think past this moment. Think think think. Today, class (no!) then next class is a final (yay then I don't go there next week.) After that I have to go home and take mom to the store, grrrrr. Nana must die. Maybe in that break I can also start some laundry cuz I need clean jeans for this weekend WHEN I GO TO CHICAGO!!!! More about that in a minute. Let's see, I have my last class at 5:30, we are doing our speeches ha ha ha ha haha ha ha. Disaster will strike. Then I get to go home and if I can think straight, today is Thurs which means Survivor is on. This should be good. Maybe more laundry. I'm hungry.
Yeah tomorrow is Friday and I work 2-6 doing 'Office' meaning self check out. That will drive me nutz, but maybe I'll be on a register instead. That would be better. Speaking of register I should do that but I refuse. I'll have to shower and shave and do that stuff. Ugga.
Yes Saturday will be exciting. bff and I are making our annual Christmas mecca go Chicago. Goin shoppin, and lookin at the windows and good stuff like that. Maybe we can get on the free shoppin trollys and I can attempt to get us killed again! That was fun 2 years ago. I basically ran out into traffic coming at me in 3 directions while attempting to catch the trolly ;) That's when we discovered that megan likes to blow her boy (not literally, it was a madlib) and that when playing hide and go seek, the subject should counterattack the camera and scream PIZZA! lol
Melissa

school scheduling

This is such bullshit. I'm so mad I can't do anything. I want to get on MSN messenger, but no. The world hates Melissa. On top of that, the semster is ending and that means it's time to start scheduling classes for next semseter....but I don't wanna! I hate going to school. I want nothing to do with it. Mom and dad are pissed, so they got the neighbor involved because she works here. WTF! Now, not only am I being forced against my will to go to school and waste everyone's time and money, I am being forced into taking crappy classes here because my neighbor wants me to be a busniess major...great idea for someone who isn't motivated...she's created my whole freakin' schedule! She always makes me talk to the business and economics people about what to take and what to do....get the hell away from me. The biggest problem is that I can't escape! She's my neighbor. I literally thought I was going to lose it and blow up and scream at the top of my freakin lungs this morning. I was simply trying to get to class...that's all...she was determined to take me upstairs to the main office and schedule my classes. I don't want to do that, those people want nothing to do with me, I'm a guest student. They are trying to add me as a major...NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! She was all filling out forms for me and taking my ID number down and I just felt my life slipping out of my hands! This is simply ridiculous.

Why is the girl at the next computer staring at me???? I think I will leave now.
Melissa

peaceful...

So last night I had my own personally defined mental breakdown. I cried all night long, screamed and yelled at everyone, hated the world, cried myself to sleep, and prayed to God. I talked to him and I told him that I really couldn't take it anymore and need a break. I know we are only given what He thinks we can handle, but jeez! Why did he have to invent my family???? I told Him that He either needed to take my family or make sure that I didn't wake up in the morning. Apparently, He didn't like either of those ideas. Kinda scary cuz I bet just to be cruel, he'd take Dude away frist. I would definately have to die. I also suggested that if none of that would be possible, could he send me someone to love me. Nobody loves me. I wanna be loved. All I do is fight with people, send me someone to love me. I need a boyfriend. At the end of the day I just want to crash into the arms of someone a lot stronger than me and be held and comforted and loved. I hope that happens.
Anyway this morning I woke up with a big sense of peace. Now if I could run and hide and avoid people all day I would be able to keep this peace. However, I have to go home now and mom has already lined up 50 things we have to do. I feel the stress and the disaster taking over....
It's all killing me slowly....
Melissa

RAGE

Ugh! Why the hell have I been so damn angry lately. The littlest thing sets me off into this massive rage...well ok I"m getting a little dramatic here, but dammit why can I not be happy?????
If anybody wants to know what to get me for x-mas, I want a Sony Network Walkman. It's only $400 and not really sold in stores much yet lol. I love you.
So I was instructed to go to the store and get laundry stuff. Well I was gonna go to Jewel with the intent to get store products and get my associate discount plus a store brand discount and Dude managed to take my keys because he took B.B. to get washed. My life is all in vein....it's all killing me slowly....
I don't really like this nailpolish as much as I used to. Cover Girl Nailslicks Electric Blue. I have so many blues that are better. Maybe I'm not in the mood for bright....so aggrivated. I have been rather addicted to Dew lately so that is a good cause of this I'm sure, but do you really want to see me decaffinated???? I would probably kill myself or someone around me....at least I hope so ;)
Melissa

An entertaining holiday story

I'm at my best friend's house. I love bff...no no no get your head out of the gutter. I just love her cuz I got so insanely pissed today and then I called her and she laughed really hard at me and now I'm better. You too can laugh at the ridiculous time I had at Hallmark....I hate the holidays.

I had to work from 8a-Noon. No big deal. It was nice and quiet. Judy was the manager today. I don't work with her much. She looks like she's had some work done. Oh well. Once again, I was my own boss. Everyone drives her nutz so I took the nice approach and was just quiet and helpful. I left and life is good. Well last night mom kept saying the only thing she wanted to do today was to go to Maria's Hallmark cuz they sent her a catalogue. Fine, I came home from work and ate lunch and then with some drama as usual, we left. Mom kept complaining that her legs were killing her and she wasn't gonna be able to walk around in Hallmark. I just yelled and said it was all mental and she was wasting her energy being negative and to shut up :) I'm so nice to mommy.
I drop her off at the door and go park on the other side of the lot. I'm listeing to the radio and being nice and warm and happy. I figure I will give her a few minutes to shop ahead of me. I walk in about 5 minutes later and she's just standing at the door. My frist thought was crap they don't have what she wants and she's pissed and has been wating, oops. No, she's at the door cuz that's as far as she got and won't go shop cuz her legs hurt. It got me very upset. I don't want to do her shopping for her cuz if someone wants their personal touch on something they need to do it themselves. She's like 'on this page i want this, and on this page i want this, use your credit card to pay, where's the keys." Grrrrrrrrrr! Stupid bitch. She goes to the car to sit down.
Well since I was pissed I was rushing trying to hurry and find what she wants and get the hell out of there. Now, most of you may know what it's like in a Hallmark store, loaded with expensive and breakable crap, not much room to walk, 10 billion ppl with noplace to go, etc. Of course, they don't have what mom wants. I realize I"m pissed so I'm sure I'm just missing it. I look again. I go over by the front window where the cards are and there is a lady there looking at cards. She's perfectly in the middle of the isle, you can not get around her. I make an attempt to ssssqqqqquuuuueeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzeeeeee past her. BIG MISTAKE. I bumped into a banner hanging from the celing which knocked over some little x-mas trees and they all hit the floor, nothing broke luckily. The lady never moved, didn't take a step back or forward. I must admit I never said "excuse me" "con permission" or anything, but duh, get out of my way. I make an attempt to pick up the little trees, but the stupid lady STILL WOULD NOT MOVE and so I got really pissed and jumped up without cleaning anything and started to go around the card isle, I felt my head hit all the windchimes and suddenly there was a huge commotion of chimes, I must have hit every single one of them, AND I DIDN'T STOP MOVING. I charged around the corner and went around the other side of the cards. I wasn't in control of my legs, I just kept getting mad and kept moving forward. I went to where the trees were on the ground and somehow managed to keep from knocking that bitch over and screaming YOU COULD HAVE MOVED!!!! I cleaned up my mess and got the hell out of that store and went to the car. Jesus!
Mom was not happy, we fought the rest of the day, ugh! I was still pissed when I got home so I called bff and told her this story and she laughed hysterically at me like I do to her whenever she talks about her family lol. She and I went to dinner at Bennigans and they were so speedy it was insane. We should have tipped more than $2 hehe. Oh well we were smart. I dont know what that comment means but soon I will be playing Sims and I am happy lol.
Melissa

Green and Cold and Hungry

I think I must be close to having a mental breakdown...that may be why i was so critical of the cd. Kelly, I like your album, I have a problem, please use your hard earned money to pay for my therapy ;)
Ok I wrote bff a note in Theater class today cuz I didn't care about Checkov. I will post it here and you can all make fun of me and my mental breakdown...I'm cold btw.

Dec 2
So like, the world is green. I'm wearing green but I'm cute. The Dew can is green is green, but it is warm and inviting and comforting and makes me happy. The chalkboard is green and it is kinda like a wall (duh i know). Hear me out. It just seems to be screaming STOP! It's just a solid green, almost forrest green. YOU SHALL NOT PASS, YOU SHALL NOT LEARN. It just looks hard and stupid and in the way. There is a book on the desk, I suspect it is a play, probably The Glass Menagerie. It is a deep forrest green, almost like a back. If you put your hand on it to pick it up, your whole arm would get sucked in like a gooey vaccuum. OOOO She just picked it up and it's black! Interesting.
Melissa

Kelly Clarkson Breakaway CD

I went to Target yesterday and bought some christmas presents. I also got myself one. Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway CD was only 9.98! It's only on till Dec 4 and I won't be back there by then so I figured I'd get it. I should have known better I suppose. The price alone was a sign that people are sick of the single perhaps. Here's my personal review.

1 - Breakaway - Yeah kewl song. I like the melody, I have been avoiding the song while it has been on the radio in an effort to want to actually get the cd and not hate the song by the time I got the CD. Guess it worked.
2 - Since U Been Gone - Heard a clip on tv, thought it sounded kewl. Sounds a little boring at the beginning. Listening to the lyrics makes me freak a little. What kind of bad relationships have Kelly been in that inspire these songs? Oh well. I like how Kelly is doing a lot of her own background stuff and it is 2 octaves higher lol. I hope shes not gonna blow her voice out performing like she did with Miss Independant.
3 - Behind These Hazel Eyes - Wow, hard rock sounding. The lyrics of this song sound like the other, talking about being ripped apart over a relationship. Can't breathe and all that. Her singing is again deep and then she's singing ontop of it octaves up. Melody is kewl. Oooo she's screaming. Now again, I think the effect is groovy, but I'm not gonna wanna see live performances.
4 - Because Of You - Slow quiet song, nice. My ears recover. Interesting lyrics. It speaks to me, I feel this way about some people. I like the sidewalk concept. This may be the Before Your Love song. Not too much screaming, hope this will be a single so she won't kill her voice too much.
5 - Gone - A title many artists have used. Wow, very ... what word to use...non connected. Digital. Violent? Angry? Killer? Groovy :) Has a lot of punch to it. Rythymic and yet not...I ca't think of the musical term. I love it. Aw crap, there's the high screaming thing again. Still love it. Kelly's poor voice....it's already gone.
6 - Addicted - This is "the most haunting and vulnerable performance" of the CD this far ;) Again I ask why Kelly can't breathe, and why she is so messed up lol. Cuz she is addicted, but I wonder what relationships this is based on. Kewl song...I predict more screaming soon...ooo the melody changes, it jumps in a pattern and the octave vocals come back. Super.
7 - Where Is Your Heart - This starts out making me think Clay will be singing Shine. Slow song again. Her vocal styling is like Sarah McGlaucklan (sorry, I don't know how to spell it). Ok so she sings very pretty and then gets real loud and not pretty. I am so unable to do this intelligently. I sorry. I don't think this goes very well together. Make it all pretty or rock it out, or for god sake make it go well together. It's relaxing and then harsh out of nowhere! I like the lyrics though. I feel like perhaps with the words and then the vocal style that she's about to suffer a mental breakdown.
8 - Walk Away - Back to rock. I like the ...it isn't quite sticcato, but punchy way she does it. If it were a stringed intstrument, I would say she is singing "off the string". Is it spicatto? I think that is the term I want. Melody is groovy but this screaming thing is gonna make me nutz. My mother will be unable to stand this cd. The one part about wanting a man not a boy reminds me of Judas's breakdown and suicide in Jesus Christ Superstar. I'm frightened.
9 - You Found Me - I have the urge to compare this to the song that has the lyric "average ordinary blah blah" The Melody is what causes that. Lyrics are kewl. I feel like kelly ... I just really want to know who she's been with the past 2 years lol. I feel like she's saying "you took me off the shelf when nobody wanted me" It makes me feel bad for her. I must be messed up in the head, not her.
10 - I Hate Myself For Losing You - No real impression. She's looking in the mirror and upset with herself. I think this cd should have been called Breakdown instead of breakaway.
11 - Hear Me - the first 7 seconds scare me, I get the picture she's drowning or being silenced. Wow, it goes from quiet to loud very well. Much better than Where Is Your Heart. Maybe she's about to go kick someones ass. Eh. I hear you Kel, do I care....
12 - Beautiful Disaster Live - Yay, this is the Kelly I like best. Pretty Kelly singing pretty and calm and this is the reason she won so this is what she should stick with so hell ya!

Overall Impression - I feel like I have just been through Dante's Inferno with Kelly. Filled with torture and emotion. I hope this goes really well for Kelly, cuz I think this has the potential to get killed by critics. Maybe the journey is more like the movie What Dreams May Come since it seems to have a happy ending.

HAPPY AGAIN!!!!!

MELISSA AMBER FALGIER IS HAPPY AGAIN!!!!!

Just thought I should announce that. I gues I'll keep the italicised writring. Looks kewl anyway. What's with this font? Wow, I didn't do any of this. I'm just happy. The sun is shining again, I almost crashed the car and then later almost fell on my face, but I'm still happy! *doing backflips* I was late getting up again today, and let's face it, had the phone not rang, I would still be sleeping right now, BUT I WOULD BE HAPPY :) I'm happy none the less. I'm nice and warm and happy. Happy Clappy. I actually had something real to write here...oh yeah. I was in the mood for some pop music on the way to school so I popped in some LFO (lyte funky ones) and I was super happy. I hope Devin Lima comes out with a solo project soon. LFO is just perfect for winter for some reason. It was their first cd but the second will be the soundtrack for the return trip home.
HAVE A NICE HAPPY DAY EVERYONE!!!!!
Melissa

This has to stop

I can't take it anymore, make it stop. The sun has not been out in a week, the sky is grey, it's cold and rainy, I can't handle it. My whole life has been screwed up over this. My whole schedule has been off due to Thanksgiving break, I have no clue how to get back in the swing of things.
Today has been just so unbelivablly messed up I could hurl. I normally get up at 6:30, but today I set the alarm for 5:51 so I could wake at 6 to leave by 7 to be at school at 8, well that's too early cuz then I would sit in the car with nothing to do, so I actually had extra time this morning. Well I didn't use it very well and ended up being 15 minutes late getting out of the house. When I actually got outside I realized my khaki's were so yellow and it was not something I could hide, so back in the house I went. I think I finally left the house by 8 and class started at 8:20. I don't know how I did it, but traffic was all going 50 so I made it in about 12 minutes to school in the rain and the crap and the fog :(
I arrive at school safely, finish listening to a talk radio segment on KIIS FM and then everything goes nutz. Normally, I would put car keys in my pocket, open door, lock the doors, grab the backpack and get out and walk to class. TODAY, in the madness and rushing and all that shit, I had some brilliant thought process that I don't remember, put the keys in the backpack, locked the doors hopped out and walked to the passenger door to retrieve the heavy backpack that I could not have lifted over the chair before. WOW, THE DOOR IS LOCKED, OH NO! I HAVE NO KEYS! WHERE ARE THEY???? IN THE BACKPACK SITTING IN THE BLAZER THAT I AM NOW LOCKED OUT OF. I'll just call mom, wait, no cellphone. Ok, I'll just go to class and figure it out from there.
It is a good thing I have 3 good friends to help me in situations like these: 1-trusty can of Dew 2-bff's cellphone that i can email text messages to 3-MEGAN CAME ONLINE AND CALLED MY MOMMY WHO CALLED ONSTAR AND SOON MY CAR WILL BE OPEN!!!!

It's all killing me slowly...
Melissa

Yellow Ribbons

Hi. So how many of your cars have those magnetic yellow ribbons on them? I bet most households have at least one or 2 cars with one on them. Well my family is not exactly the Tie A Yellow Ribbon Round the Old Oak Tree type family. We don't agree with the war in Iraq, but I guess that doesn't mean we don't support our troops, we just don't advertise it. At any rate, one day mom and I were driving and she saw one on the back of a car. She finally woke up and realized what it was and how many people had to have them. She jumped on the bandwagon. Ugh! We got ours at Osco and took it home. Once we opened the bags up we discovered the yellow ribbon did not make it home. Melissa got sent back to the store! I got to go steal one that was "set aside" for me. I finally get home with the stupid thing, and mom's like 'what does that warning say?' I read it. I bet nobody else did, and if they did they didn't care. Who would care about the warning on a magnet! The warning said 'blah blah this is not for prolonged use, it can rust, blah blah blah. clean it once in a while to prevent this, bleh bleh bleh!' I tell this to mom and she's just like "well that's stupid, I'm not gonna use it now!" *collapses* WHAT THE HELL!!!! So now we have 2 of the yellow ribbon magnet things to not support our troops with which we normally wouldn't anyway, so I guess all is right with the world. Anybody need 2 of those things?
Melissa

Happy

I guess I'm happy, but everytime I get in a good mood, someone does something to change that. Last night before bed I was happy. Then I had a dream that involved Britney Spears, JC Chasez, and myself doing something...fun. I woke up very happy this morning. I still hate Britney though.
Work was good, but it was a short day, only 4 hours and I still had to get up at the crack of dawn. Hardly worth getting up for. 7a-11. Haven't seen Harry in a few weeks. Wonder if he reads my blog. Oops. It was slow mostly, but chaotic sometimes because of "bad management" as usual. A very interesting thing happenned as I left the store. I got some little gifts for friends for Christmas and as I was checking out, my bagger who is friends with one of the dude's I have a crush on, said something really fast that started with 'just'. Whatever he said I never really heard it because I was unprepared for how fast he was going to speak. ImeanreallyIdon'tknowtoomanypeoplewhotalklikethisdoyou?"
I asked him to repeat himself and he was just like 'nothin' so I missed it. ug. I'm doin laundry and making a mess.
Melissa

happy

hi, not been blogging, not much to say. fought with tom, giving it space for now. tomorrow i'm seeing Finding Neverland with 2 friends I haven't seen in forever, very happy melissa. need money now.
melissa

Gobble Gobble

Happy Turkey Day!!! What's exciting people? Last night I had a crazy ass dream. First of all, Titans came and destroyed the place. First the rock titan, then the ice titan. (maybe this means we have to go do kh) Then later in the dream people started gaining all these super powers. At first we were scared of the few that had them, but then everyone besides me had them! I was feeling left out, but then Elphaba, the wicked witch of the west, came and I was like "ooooo pick me! pick me!" I went with her and she had my cat, Oliver, but this time his name was Afaroo! What the hell is that all about!
Melissa

bleh

what a crappy day. it's crappy out - wet and rainy and snowy and yucky. i feel like crap, weak and tummy and barfy and bleh. i look crappy cuz i don't wanna get all dressed for feeling crappy and being wet and snowed on. on top of this i have to do crappy things like clean and do laundry. stupid holidays.
bleh.
me

Katie's story - you finish it

Ok everyone this was my friends story.

We were just finishing up watching Van Helsing. Vampires had always interested me, but I had never mentioned it to anyone. My best friend said it was time for her to go home, it was getting pretty late. I opened my front door and we both went outside. She walked down my driveway to her car and opened the door. I stood by the curbside. Suddenly I heard a loud rustling behind me. I turned to see a possum sitting on the sidewalk, looking up into the sky. I jumped, but wasn't completely frightened. Melissa, my best friend, screamed. She couldn't believe that I was still standing near the animal. I looked to the sky to reveal the moon, in all its glory; shinning brightest I'd ever seen. I turned my head back to Melissa in her car and noticed she wasn't there. Curious, I called to her as I turned around to notice the little possum was starring straight at me. His eyes focused on an image right in front of me. I turned my head back around and was hit by a huge white blurry. It lifted me into the sky and carried me along by my ankle. After a few seconds of seeing my neighborhood from the sky, I passed out. Only to awake several hours later.....I couldn't see a thing. However, I heard this great voice....."What you are is what you will be." It kept repeating over and over again. "What you are is what you will be." Louder and louder it kept getting. I screamed and asked who was there, but the voice just kept saying "What you are is what you will be." All of the sudden I heard screaming, not your normal screaming, this sounded as if a tornado was rushing past a speeding train, almost a whistle of distraction setting it's path. Then, I heard a sound I was familiar with, however, did not want to hear....Melissa, she was screaming out in pain. "What are you doing? Stop! She is my friend! Let us go!" I cried out, but only the whistling of the screams were heard. I called to Melissa, but no answer. Just as I turned to face the whistling screams, a warm deep breath covered my shoulder, sending all of the hair on my neck straight up towards the sky. "Who's there?" I yelled, the whistling screaming completely gone. "Down boy," a voice said "He won't hurt you.....Yet." "What do you want from me? Why can't I see?" I quickly replied. "Sight is the first thing you always loose. Don't worry, in time it will return." This deep dark voice said. "What? I don't understand?" I replied. "In do time. I can answer all your questions." I suddenly started to see blurred light. Not too much, but just enough to let me see blurred outlines of images. I started to search for Melissa. "Looking for your friend.....are you?" the voice said, I quickly turned to face the voice, to try and make out an image. I squinted to make out an image of this dark voice, but couldn't see much. " Ah...I see your vision is slightly returning. Good.....But there is no use of looking for your friend.....She has been dinner.....FOR MY FAMILY!" Now I could see a better image of this voice. He was sitting in a chair, a throne. His black clothes hid everything but his pale face. His dark hair fell past his shoulders and down around his elbows. Suddenly the whistling screams were heard again. "Ah they hunger again. You shall feed them nicely." The man said. "What?" I asked, "Please, don't....." I was quickly interrupted by him, "Don't make me out to be so mean, child. Let me introduce myself. I am Count Devian Dracuuler, great scientist of our time." "You're a scientist?" I said taking a big gulp of air, "Why is that so hard to believe? EVERYONE MAKES FUN OF ME! I'M A SCIENTIST DAMN IT!" he said spreading his arms wide, making a huge shadow behind him, his voice filling the whole room, shattering bottles of all sizes. "Yes, there are stories, many stories....the latest being that Van Helsing. Who ever thought I looked like that? And Dracula..... That's not my name....IT'S DRACUULER!" he said more angry than before. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" I replied, only hoping he wouldn't get any more mad. "Now darling, it's not your fault...." he said as he slowly walked towards me. He reached under my chin and held my face close to his, looking straight into my eyes he said "It's time.... repeat after me, and you shall live, and maybe I'll spare Melissa as well....look deep into my eyes." I nodded my head as best I could. "What you are is what you will be.....what you are is what you will be.....what you are is what you will be." I repeated until I passed out once again. I woke up several hours later, back home.... back in my room, Melissa laying face down on the floor..................Ok, now you finish! Also, think of a cool title! This should be fun!

NEKUS!!!!!

hey! look i created a new word - NEKUS!!!! I was attempting to type MELTS, but got a key off in one hand ;)

it's all up to my readers...what should nekus mean????? leave comments!
melissa

Yesterday and the crazy dream

First off I would like to say thank you to whomever it was that gave me 39 hits yesterday according to bravenet. I appreciate everyone who takes time to read my bloggy :)

Monday was absolute NUTZNESS!!!! I was in panic mode the whole day trying to get shit done quickly. Panic mode is no way to go through life I tell ya! I woke up fantastically late for school, don't remember breakfast, got dressed, smelled nice, went to class, fell asleep in class, went to the computer lab, got in the car and called home to tell mom I was coming home, and got yelled at. I HAVE TO GO TO THE STORE I TOLD YOU I HAD TO GO TO THE STORE YOU ARE TAKING ME TO THE STORE BEFORE YOU GO TO WORK GET HOME NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Once I recovered from the onslaught, I attempted to drive 50 but everyone was in my way so i zigged and zagged right past a cop :) he didn't care. go gary police. i finally get home panicing and starving, don't remember much, grabbed mom, back in the car, go to munster jewel, mom being a pain in the ass and fighting with the deli ppl, there were no wheatables, mom didnt like the cat treats i grabbed, found the wheatables, mom found something else instead, go put the wheatables back properly (learned my lesson on facing), can't find mom, ten thousand other things go wrong, panicing cuz i have to get home to eat and change and get gas in the car. *deep breath* finally get home, scarf down a hot dog lunchable, drink tonz of cola, get upset tummy which lands me in the potty for a while, hurry and get dressed, get in the car, go gas station, pump gas, pay for gas, drive to work, get there with 2 minutes to spare, go potty again, feel better now, get on the floor and work self checkout. I actually worked my ass off and i did it well in front of my boss and didn't get yelled at for once. something rather interesting did happen though. i helped a lady at the self checkout and she thanked me and pulled me aside and handed me $40. I started to go nutz cuz I can't take that from her, but she was like 'there is a guy over there with 3 girls, i want to pay for his groceries.' uummm okay...i walk over to register 4 which was going to get me in trouble for being away from my post, but what the hell, shirley hasn't yelled at me yet, lets give her a cause ;) i walk over to my friend margie who is finishing the man's order and she announces it's $38 so i tap her on the shoulder and let her know about the money and give it to her. she freaks and won't take it and makes me go over to shirley to explain the situation. i tell shirley what happens and ug! she talks to the guy and i don't know what happenned in the end, but the guy knew about the woman and ug. i went back to self checkout and life was decent :) i got my break on time but in all my panicing before, i forgot to take my lunch. i had .80 cents in my pocket so i got candy lol. the rest of the night i was on a register and dawn and jp were there so life was good except for the usual, not enough baggers or cashiers and way too many people wanting to checkout all at once.

by the end of the night i was so exhausted i wanted to fall over and go home. at 8:30 i had to do some shopping for mom still even after all we went through, grrr. came home, dude was like 'what do you want to eat?' i was just so tired i wasn't even hungry so i almost didn't eat. i ended up with a cheesburger from schwanns or whatever. watched csi miami with dude which partly inpired the dream i had which i'll explain in a min. i was supposed to shwer and go to sleep but i was too beat to shower even though i was gross and stinky. i was in bed by 11 and i should have just gone at 10 when i was half unconscious anyway.
i dreampt that i was driving down 45th avenue in the dark to get to wherever my friend megan www.xanga.com/shaniafanatic was. it was pitch black dark and there was no power so you couldn't see your hand in front of your face. that part came from csi :) well i was attempting to do 50 as usual but this time i passed, not a gary cop, but a munster police hummer! a hummer? when did munster get that rich lol. thank god this is a dream. in my attempt to speed i realized what was next to me and the fact that i couldn't see jack shit, so i slowed down. then my cellphone rang but instead of it's little tune, it rang to the munster high school fight song lol. it was megan. she was like, 'man i haven't even been here 24 hours and i got arrested, bla bla blah AND THEN I GOT ARRESTED AGAIN!!!!" then i woke up :)

have a good day people!

Strange shit!

so last night i worked at jewel til midnight. i did everything-overstock, facing,cashier,bagger, carts,etc. things went well but i never thought they would. close to midnight i was attempting to put some spices away, but i never found where they go, so i just dumped thim in the bread isle. i got back to work at 8:30 this morning, and the store manager wants me to face the spices with her! how's that for irony...or revenge...or security cameras...
yeah so after i got spicy with veronica, i went back to my register at about 10:30am and worked for a while. out of the corner of my eye i see tony staring at me. he's in the end of an isle close to me just looking at me. i wave and he nods, then gets on his cellphone. he stares at me the whole time he's on his phone. kinda freaky. he never came in my line, bought anything, or said any reason for having just driven a hour and a half to come see me.
I came home from work and attempted to talk to my buddy tom about all this, but he's got a new girlfriend...melissa is jealous :( my best friend bff is too busy for me at the present time so melissa is alone in a lonly world where people stalk her and stare at her for no reason.
Melissa

I LOVE JEWEL :)

I GOT A RAISE AT JEWEL!!! NOW I DON'T HAVE TO QUIT!!!
Isn't it exciting??? I now make 8.25 an hour! Maybe I'll stick with it after all! I also see that I have 16 hours of vacation time...I'll have to look into that. I work 6-midnight baggin and then 8:30-3 Sun and Mon 3-8:30!
Yay. Happy Melissa!

Ah, the power of Dew :)

Mt. Dew, Mt. Dew
How I love you, How I love you,
You make me feel good when I am blue
Mt. Dew, I love you :)

It's beena boring stupid day and now I am drinking dew and life rocks. Dinner is to die for! Its on the table in 2 mins. Pasta with veggies and parmasion (sp?) shrimp! YUMMY!

So lindsay lohan wants people to respect her privacy in her song Rumors. I love lindsay and the song but here's a brilliant idea, if the cameras are in ur face all the time and you want them to chill WHY NOT VENTURE FURTHER INTO THE ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY AND BECOME A SINGER??? Genius :) I'm sure it's not her fault, but it's a major duh in my opinion.
Britney's cd is a little better now that i have heard it a few times.
Melissa

Grr

Grrr. Life sucks. Job interview was a waste of time. It was for a position cleaning rooms for $6 an hour. I feel bad that I did'nt ask about advancement, but dammit, I don't clean my own room and I already make 7.85 at a job i'm pissed about. I'm extra grrrred cuz I looked really awesome yesterday and it was just for that joke. I have been wearing lazy comfy clothes for the 4 days previous and then back to it today. I've started doing laundry again though, so things may be looking up ;)
Weather has been beautiful the past 2 days. 60s! So happy! 60s again today! I'm just sick of all this gloom and rain and darkness. I'm also getting completely overwhelmed with schoolwork and family and crap. Speaking of familly tomorrow I have to go the hospital for uncle's test thing. life blows.
once again i find my self pissed about this guy i've been writing about in the "new relationship..." articles. *sharpens dagger* I'm gonna kill him. He's gonna get mad at me one day but oh well. I'm hungry. i'm getting sick. i should go to the doctor. grr.
melissa
ps i'm almost done with 3rd part of poem i swear. i just refuse to work on it lol

Oh no!

I forgot what I was going to say for my job interview. When they ask me about myself I was gonna tell them I'm positive...something...and something else. happy? friendly? adorable? nonononononono. helpful? ha! i'm gonna blow on this interview.

POSITIVE!!!
LOYAL!!!
PATIENT!!!

Worked with public for the past 5 years on and off. Worked babysitting children as well! happy melissa :)

WHAT TO WEAR, WHAT TO WEAR????

Holy shit! I'm so stressed out! I don't know what to wear to the job interview with the Hampton Inn on Wed. Could I do khakis? I don't have a suit! I was going to wear a green shirt with white color and cuffs with a green corduoy skirt that comes to near my ankles. I'm concerned with that because it has a slit in front that comes to about the knee so that might be bad, but if I cross my legs at the ankle like women are supposed to do at interviews I should be ok, yes? HELP ME PPL! If I pick the khakis then I would wear a nice top with it. I also have a really nice sweater I could wear...sugguestions anyone?
A frazzled Melissa

Nauseous & Excited

That's my current feeling. I got an imood account. You can check me out at imood.com by looking under mfalgier. At any rate, I have had an unsettled tummy all day long. Woofing McDonald's down didn't help AND THE MONOPOLY GAME ISN'T BEING PLAYED THERE! WTF!

Went to school. Good class, but I didnt' do as hot on the test as I thought. Came home, went to store with mom, went well. We came home, Nana tells me a man called from Hampton lol. I'M HAVING A JOB INTERVIEW WED AT 3:30! VERY HAPPY,but being happy makes my tummy more unsettled. Bleh!
Ok now to write my theater review...bleh bleh bleh.
Melissa

Sunday Morning

Today was basically a great day, but yesterday was so much better. I don't remember if I posted or what lol but I definately did nothing. I barely made it out of pjs lol and just lounged about the house all day getting into trouble :) It's good to be a Melissa. HOWEVER around 10:30pm I discovered what a bad thing I did by being lazy all day. I FORGOT TO GO TO THE PLAY AT IUN THAT I NEEDED TO WRITE THE PAPER FOR TO TURN IN TO MY THEATER THEACHER ON TUESDAY!!! I knew that would happen to cuz I had origionally forgotten to buy the stupid ticket. I guess this play has just not been on my radar.

So this morning I worked my usual 7a-1p shift and it was marvelous! Kenna opened instead of Chris so I knew I could relax. No store manager, well not till later and for that matter I didn't care lol. Things went really well cuz for some reason they just did and I'm not gonna give anyone credit for anything! Carol did actually work today though. So yeah, I was happy and nobody bothred me and I didn't do anything stupid, and I didn't get yelled at and for the most part everyone worked their asses off :) GO JEWEL :)
Then after work I bought a Dew and went to IUN to go beg for a new play ticket. I got one for the 2:30 play, but I had to repay for my ticket, stupid. The play was Crimes of the Heart. I hear there was a movie made of this and I'm posative it has to be better than the play today. I could make sock puppets more entertaining. It needed more action rather than sheer drama and having to actually listen to dialogue lol. It's stupid cuz I don't have to write my paper on the plot at all! As a matter of fact, if I do, it doesn't count. So grrrrrr.
After crimes of the fart, I went home and we all ate dinner, don't remember what. I did dishes and extreme makeover home edition was a rerun, but a good one. THEN AMERICAN MUSIC AWARDS! Lotz of interesting stuff. I taped it more than watched it. Saw some kewl stuff like Josh Groban being perfectly in tune and caring about his performance and Maroon 5 doing Sunday Morning which is apparently their new single WOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!!! Also saw some desturbing shit like WHAT THE HELL WAS MY CLAY BABY WEARING!!!! HOW MANY BROWNIES DID HE EAT BEFORE GOING TO WARDROBE! Loser :) He didn't even try. On the note of bad idols, yeah yeah yeah yeah Fantasia sucks yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yea ;)
I'm gonna listen to Maroon 5 now.
My ear squeaks when I hiccup...is this bad?
Anonymous - tell me more about yourself...what state do you live in?
Melissa

Things I would like to do to Britney Spears...

I have been told that I have bisexual tendencies...here is what I would do to Britney Spears if I could....

WRAP MY HANDS AROUND HER THROAT AND CHOKE HER TO DEATH!!!!

See, I belong to BMG music service and In The Zone was my featured selection and I forgot to decline. Well I knew I would hate this cd and had no intention of listening, but just to make sure I listened. God, please kill her. She should just make a 30 minute disk of her having sex and an orgasm and be done with it. She doesn't sing well at all. Anyone can sing like a nasal 3 year old!

CD Review
1 - Me against the music - whatever, don't care
2 - Boom Boom - ew i hate little jon, this is just stupid
3 - Showdown - not bad, not great, and that stupid 'whhaaa' sound is horrendous!
4 - Breathe on me - just have sex and be done with it dammit! bleh *hurls* I can watch better porn rather than listening to this.
5 - Early Morning - she's promoting a terrible lifestyle and i'm so sick of it. why does she bother
6 - Toxic - hurts my hears, sounds like psycho
7 - Outrageous - not bad, like the asian sound, actually wouldn't mind seeing her dance to this. I think i have heard this song before. not bad, not outstanding
8 - Touch of my hand - pretty intro, not bad, erotic-ish. wow, at the end she actually does some kewl vocal things high up.
9 - The Hooke up - regge kewl, i could dance to this if i were alone in a dark room, she still sounds like a nasal 3 year old though
10 - Shadow - she almost sings here, kinda nice, she should try harder
11 - Brave New Girl - hmm kewl, nice sound, is brit singin bout herself? kinda good message
12 - Everytime - music box effect is kewl, decent song, still not singing well.
13 - Me agains the music remix - i like this better than track 1

ok well i'm gonna go throw up and kill britney now.
melissa

Careful: Slippery Then Wet

Careful: Slippery Then Wet

kewl blog

THANKS!!!!

Since we are rapidly approaching Thanksgiving let's talk about THANKS. My mother randomly springs it on me that I need to be off work this Friday to go with her to the hospital to take my uncle for a test. I think this sucks in general, but it is even worse because if she had told me 2 damn weeks ago (when she learned about it) then I could have made a request off. BUT NO! Luckily for her, people at work like me. Maybe I should think of it like this: something terrible is going to happen to uncle bob because it was by chance that I happenned to hear a coworker saying she needed saturday off and got scheduled, so i offered to switch with her. That was too easy, what do the fates have to say about that!?!?!?
I mention THANKS because when I got home and told my mother and father that I would now have friday free, work sat 6-midnight for cori, and then be at work 8:30a on Sun, they practically bitched me out on what a bad trade that was!!! WHAT ABOUT THANK YOU???? Assholes!!!
At least work went very smoothly today. It was almost wierd as a matter of fact. Shirley (evil front end manager) was on vacation, Judy (2nd in line) wasn't there, we were borrowing an assistant manager from Dyer I'm assuming, Veronica (evil store manager) was doing the scheduling for the front end, and the whole freakin store was just in chaos! As time went on things calmed down and I was happy, but it got lonely at the self checkout. I worked with Carol and therefore, nothing got done! :( Dawn came in late and that was exciting cuz once the people stopped coming in we were all just hanging out and chatting and I was kinda part of the group. It was a nice feeling. But then Dawn actually worked and it got lonely again, but it was still kinda kewl but boring, ugga. the whole front end is ready to quit and currently looking for other jobs. Maybe we should all go to Meijer lol.

So the moral of the story is THANK MELISSA'S FOR DOING NICE THINGS FOR YOU EVEN THOUGH THEY WOULD RATHER SHOOT YOU IN THE HEAD :) Have a good day ;)
Melissa

blah blah blah

hi
so yesterday when i was complaining of having no money you all let me go to the bank knowing perfectly well that it wasn't open. what is wrong with you ppl??? oh well i will take care of things today before work. i work 4-10 and i'm on the stupid self check out. i don't think it will go too badly. At least, I'm hoping not. even if my boss is there i should hardly have to deal with her. maybe JP and dawn or jp and jamie or just any one of those 3 would be a good deal. even justin but he probably thinks i'm a damn fool.
i don't know why i'm blogging, i have nothing to say. i woke up to dude hitting me with a dirty sock because i slept in late. loon. i'm pretty happy today. i need to shower though, i'm gross. when i get out i will smell like pearberry and THIS TIME NO SPIDERS BETTER ATTACK! *shudder* I'm currently listening to a song from the George of the Jungle soundtrack called Dela (I think i know why the dog howls at the moon). Dude has been messing with our antenna on the roof to get better picture on the tv. he does this from time to time and he should learn that it will do him no damn good, but whatever. he likes to keep busy, i prefer to be lazy.
chapter 3 of the poem is going better. i'm finally able to rhyme again. i need a rhyming dictionary. just a few more lines and then editing cuz its a big chapter lol. i've decided it will be 30 chapters or less lol. wish me luck everyone.
melissa

Things to complain about!!!

My grandmother just ate one of my awesome blueberry and creme suckers!!! Who the hell does she think she is? She eats like 5 meals a day and 4 snacks. We're gonna kill her. The funny thing is that her ankles are fatter than her whole body. The bad thing is she smells so bad its disgusting.

The one radio station that is actually playing that Survivor song I like has changed its format. It is now Love FM. Now I have recently been looking for more calm music to be on the radio, but this is just a terrible time. It doesn't even play that great of music.

While I was just typing, I got disconnected from the internet so I don't know if this post will work properly. Plus I hate this color. I wanted hot pink! Grrrr. If only I knew HTML.

The road construction is finally getting to me. I was driving home from school early today cuz I don't have my evening class when suddenly, I remembered I had to buy my play ticket. Drive back to school, get the ticket, attempt to drive home...road construction...traffic....moving.........EXTRA.................ssslllooowww
Turns out there was an accident...damn old people.

I need more $$$.

I hate my family. They are so annoying downstairs.

I'm stuck on my Van Helsing poem. I can't write or rhyme!

I'm getting harrassed so I will quit now and put my awesome cucumber melone hand sanitizer on. Ahhhh :) Happy clappy!
Melissa

PS ~ It's all killling me ... slowly ...

'tis the season

...to be sneezin' fa la la la la, la la la LA!

I think everyone is getting sick. Lotz of bronchitis going around. You ppl keep away from me! I had brochitis my whole freakin childhood in the wintertime. I'm probably immune to it, but stay away none the less.

today the sky is blue and it's freezing! only in the 50s! what's a melissa to do? i dont' think my mother saw the weather cuz she told me to put on a light jacket and i listened to her. BBBUUUURRRRRR!!!!!!!!

Man, this week is nutzso. Yesterday I didn't have class, which I knew ahead of time and wed. we have a test in it! Today I wake up all hyper and get ready and leave for school and get there and class is cancelled. What the ... grrr. So I wait til 11:30 for my next class which most likely won't be cancelled since we have a test on Thurs. After that I wait 4 hours for last class which won't be cancelled, but will be on Thursday. Nutzo!

I'm very itchy. I have a cute black pinstripe top on and it's itchy. It's very tricky to be itchy, cold, and hungry, all the while wanting Mt. Dew but being in the computer lab and not being able to drink it. I'm gettin stared at now cuz this chick is evil. Bye
Melissa

SPIDERS!!!!!

I swear, the genius that made cucumber melon should be made a saint. I am so calm and happy, despite the fact that my mother deserves to be shot to death. No, she needs to have her head cut off, split her vocal chords so she won't bother me with her voice. I will kill her one day....

Dude is on vacation this week. He gave up his x-mas vacation to be home with mom this week taking care of Nana. Dude rocks. He should leave this family and take me with him cuz mom doesn't deserve him. I wonder if this means I won't be opening up presents in front of the camera this year. Oh well this tradition needs to stop, it's getting dumb anyway. So dude woke up this morning and woke me up at 9am on a day where I don't have to wake up. Then the whole world went nutz. I attempted to eat and then go shower. Well the shower came after playing neopets, but still...finally I took the shower. However I do't think i got clean cuz there was a SPIDER THAT KEPT COMING DOWN FROM THE CELING AND TERRORIZING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was like Sheilab in LOTR!!! (no, not really, but you are talking to melissa here! well you aren't really talking, i'm diong the talking but...)so my shower was only 30 minutes, or less. If I get out of the shower in 30 minute or less,do you get a free pizza? Is anyone still reading this...HELLO ELLO LLO LO lo o o o.....

Around 1p I went out for a few hours to fill out job aps. I went to 3 places. Munster is opening a new Gus Bock Ace hardware and I filled out an ap in Lansing. I also went to the Hampton Inn in Munster. I forgot to mention on the ap that I had computer skills. Ah well. I got a call from mom asking me to get her Tonic water so I went to Cheers to fill out an ap as well. Before long I came home and fought with MSN to get online and stay online. That didn't go well so I made a phonecall to tech support...didn't go well either. We're gonna switch to NetZero soon. Ok well I'll leave you on these thoughts to go work on the VH Poem ch 3 :)
Melissa

I am, of course, none other than blank verse. I don't know where I'm going, yes, quite right; And when I get there (if I ever do) I might not recognise it. So? Your point? Why should I have a destination set? I'm relatively happy as I am, And wouldn't want to be forever aimed Towards some future path or special goal. It's not to do with laziness, as such. It's just that one the whole I'd rather not Be bothered - so I drift contentedly; An underrated way of life, I find. What Poetry Form Are You?

part 2

yupyup my hands still smell awesome. so i get past the first hour and life is good, people show up on time, but the front end manager Shirley is there. grrrr. previous posts will tell u i don't like this chick too much. anway i get my break and all and she sends me to self check out. i have decided she did this just to have someone to humiliate. it's like a damn punishment for me. and i had a lot of disasters happen. i really want to cry. does anyone know of someone in NW Indiana hiring for about $8 an hour that needs someone adorable to work for them? so major disasters strike, i won't bother with the detail cuz i'm happy now.

Aunt Patty is in town from AZ and I got to see her. She's a blonde now! I have always remembered her having black hair. oh well she looks better like this. of course i never have a damn camera when i need it. oh well . it dinnertime and melissa is starving.
melissa
ps me with out making stop tom!!!

Aroma Therapy

I smell like cucumber melon :) That's cuz I just put it on my hands. I am very happy now unlike when I got home from work today. I really need to look into getting a new job. That may be my goal for tomorrow since I don't have class.
So yeah, get to work at 7am and i"m late. when did this happen i wonder? i was on time when i left. probably because i couldn't see and hand to drive slowly with one hand in the air blocking my actual line of vision so the stupid sun wouldn't cause me to drive into oncoming traffic. clock in at 7:03! whoops! well the first hour goes well except for the one guy that always come in the first hour. he buys lots of green and red leaf lettuce. dunno why. is there something he wants to tel me cuz apparantly he likes to eat salad????? he's basically come out and said that if he were younger and better looking he would have "made a pass" at me a long time ago. eeeeekkkkkk. : Well today he comes in my line and instead of greeting me with Hello, he says "in case you ever need to know, my name is Harry." AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Why would I be needing to know this? How about cuz when I have to give the cops a description of you, I'll at least know your name is Harry...

I'll post more later, I'm being interrupted

Luck

hello
yesterday i worked 12-5 at jewel at the self check out. i was all happy and excited for once cuz #1 my managers were all sick and couldn't yell at me ;) and #2 they were playing some awesome music! i was so happy. eventually i got bored and hungry so i took my break. the last hour and a half went slow. after work my best friend and i went to dinner and to see 2 movies. first we saw Alfie. I loved it. Jude Law is hot, and usually I'm not a big fan of his but this was just great. I think i'm just hormonal cuz everytime i saw a guy i was just attackingbff going 'hot guy, hot guy, oh look , hot guy!' and she yelled at me. she said if i saw a tripod i would get all hot and bothered (its an austin powers thing i guess).
so after that we saw the incredibles. i didn't really care for it. the plot took too long to move. i sat there for an hour and 45 mins and went "are we halfway over yet?" i think i was just tired. after all that bff took me home. i should have had her stop at jewel in munster cuz i wanted a dew.
BB CAME HOME THIS MORNING :) Dude (dad) and I went to go get pick him/her/it up. BB is the name for the trailblazer. It stands for Big Blazer. Dude calls it Rhett cuz its a deep red. i got to drive it home but i was sure something bad was gonna happen so i was just like Dude you drive it. he got all mad and i ended up diving. well i nearly killed a bicyclist and basically ran a white car off the road, but finally made it home in one piece. now i'm gonna finish the dishes and do the litterboxes and see what else i can do. ha!
melissa

Van Helsing Poem Parts 1 & 2

Hey I'm gonna repost part one again with the new part 2. That way, if you are looking at this for the first time you see all of it and once I get to part 150 you can look all the way back here and see where part one was. I had origionally posted it under the entry of Time but that might be confusing later so here ya go.

A monster is created
On a dark, stormy night
Count Dracula is elated
It starts in black and white
The purpose of the creature
Was to be reliant
Dracula's decisions
Led him to be defiant
The monster and his master
Head over to the windmill
The angry mob disaster
Follows them with plans to kill
Dracula's brides begin to wail
And he himself is pissed
The peasant crowd begins to bail
The key to life is missed

At the church of Notre Dame
We look ahead one year
Trouble called, Van Helsing came
Without a single fear
There's color in the story
When Van Helsing talks to Hyde
It gets a little gory
Cuz many folks have died
Van Helsing says its Hyde's decision
If he lives or dies
The two of them have a collision
Through the rose window Hyde flies

Family Drama

I'm in a green mood today. I was gonna wear green but didn't. I've decided to overcompensate for that and make everything that I can green. ****GREEN****

Yeah so yesterday was a complete disaster. Well it was a well hidden disaster but once the facts came out, all disaster. First off, stupid President gets to stay in power. I saw a cute shirt today that said FUCK BUSH. I think that get's pretty much to the point :) Back to yesterday. I went to school, came home all excited cuz I got to drive the rental car while BB get's an exteme makeover : trailblazer edition hehehe. We have a cute little '05 Dodge Neon. I said 'hi' to it and got in. I HATE THAT CAR. Well for $33/day it has no power windows or seats and *shudders* you have to actually put the key in the lock to open the doors and trunk, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also yesterday mom's friend from AZ called and said she was in town. She wants to get together on Friday-ish. This is all crazy cuz of the biggest disaster of yesterday.....NANA IS COMING HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL AND STAYING WITH US!!!!!!!!!!!!! Major disaster. Mom spent the whole day drinking and only ate 2 bites of taco for dinner. Dad was maddddddd.
Guhduhbuhduhduh.

Right now I need to be doing a midterm. I will be lucky to complete half. Better than nothing. We'll see, maybe I'll not do it at all. Dammit! Why do the noisy ppl have to sit by me. SSSHHHHH. Grrrr. I'll post more poem now.

lazy

lazy lazy lazy i'm a lazy little fuzzball. homework, who needs it. just ppl that want to further educate themselves. i refuse. i've had too much baja blast mt dew from taco bell. i'm listening to world idol music and thinking of organizing my nailpolish. at 9 is wife swap. its all about exercise. I'M BOUNCIN OFF THE WALLS AGAIN.... Mr Bojangles.
Bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye.

'Suggestions for god' Box!

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Andrew in Japan

Andrew in Japan is a kewl blog I found while looking around yesterday. He got all excited about a skwish pillow lol. Check it out!

Hola!

Hello hot guy sitting across from me in the computer lab. You are muy guapo ;) I wish I could flirt with you but I'm too shy. We keep making eye contact. Maybe I know you? I hope I see you again when I look cuter so I can strike up a conversation. I'd better brush up on my spanish ;)

Bin Ladin

http://english.aljazeera.net/NR/exeres/79C6AF22-98FB-4A1C-B21F-2BC36E87F61F.htm

so this is what the dude said. ya know if he would just learn english that would probably make more ppl listen to him. then again, news agencies really haven't bothered to post this so here ya go!

Happy Voting Day!!!

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Happy Voting Day Everybody!!!!!
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I didn't have my morning class today cuz she let us have a library day or go vote. That was nice. Very confusing though. It was kewl getting 2 extra hours of sleep. I had no problem getting in and out, just finding parking was my only battle. I parked next door the polling place, which you weren't supposed to do, but I don't care. I'll vote, but I won't do it by the rules ;) I look really cute today. My hair is a disaster but I decided not to bother doing it cuz it's massively crappy outside and my hair will get ruined anyway. My outfit is very patriotic. I have a nifty top on that is long sleeved tye dye like the american flag. The shirt is mostly red and white striped with some blue and white in the upper right (if you were to look at it on me it looks like a flag so i'm not crazy). I should be in class right now but I"m not interested in discussing politics. I hate last week and this week school is all about politics. I voted, I'm happy, I don't care, leave me alone.

Nothing much to say today. It's gloomy and I just chugged a liter of Watermelon flavored kewlaid that I had mom make. Yes i make my mother do things for me. it was in return for doing shit for her. Ruben Studdard was on Regis and Kelly this mornig. He was promoting his new x-mas album. I have never really been a fan of his but he did really awesome this morning. i think he's finally loosing weight and it's strengthening his vocal chords. i won't be getting his album and for that matter i may not get clays x-mas cd cuz i'm mad that he's doing one. i'm a big claymate so god only knows what i will do lol. alright ppl, i'll leave u alone for now.

MELISSA

Driving!!!

People, just because it is gloomy and raining outside doesn't mean you can't drive 50 mph!!! I can do it! Get out of my way if you can't! And to the looser driving down the dotted line...PICK ONE! I can't believe I had to pass you in the turning lane!

I had a great dream last night. I can't share it though ;) I did have a sharable dream the other night though. I forgot to tell Megan about this. I drempt that I saw Ralph! Ralph is a bagger from the Munster Jewel. He ended up getting to work at Dyer and then he quit and got married and stuff and I"m sure I'll never hear from him again. Anyway I think in the dream I saw him at Stracks cuz that's what it looked like in there. He looked different. Someone had to point him out to me. He was dressed in a suit that was brown with a pink shirt underneath. His hair was about to his shoulders and his mustache looked like my dad's. It was so nice to see him :)

EVERYONE VOTE TOMORROW!!!!!

Time

So how did the time change treat everyone? It really screwed with everyone at work. The customers were all early and the employees were all late :) What the hell ya gonna do? Trick-or-Treating was cute, I didn't go but I handed out candy and fought with my parents.

Ok, so this anonymous person is all excited about my poem so I'll post what I have now. This is just about the intro of VH. BTW Anonymous, do I know you at all, or did ya just happen on by my Little Blue Blog here? Nice to have ya either way. Just wondered.

VAN HELSING POEM BEGINNING
A monster is created
On a dark, stormy night
Count Dracula is elated
It starts in black and white
The purpose of the creature
Was to be reliant
Dracula's decisions
Led him to be defiant
The monster and his master
Head over to the windmill
The angry mob disaster
Follows them with plans to kill
Dracula's brides begin to wail
And he himself is pissed
The peasant crowd begins to bail
The key to life is missed

Tada! Watcha think?????????????
Melissa

Terrible People

I feel terrible. I let him do it to me again. I actually believed he was going to come. We made plans 2 days in advance. Somehow I don't believe he really wanted to do something, but he said he wanted to. He said he would try for lunch, although the way he said it I felt like I was being "penciled in." I called him, he was busy, I called him later, he was like 'we'll do dinner'. I called him and said I was hungry, where did he want to go, he was busy but would be ready in a few mins and would call...he never took his phone with him. I called his house, his dad answered, he wasn't there.
Maybe he's terrible. What planet did he grow up on where you don't attempt to be couteous to people who are waiting for you. Maybe he has short term memory. Whah! The last time I heard from him was over 4 hours ago. Good thing I ate dinner.

THE KATIE AND MELISSA HYPER POEM!!!!!

Hyper
Mountain Dew and Pixie Stix
That's the way we get our kicks
Watching George slam into trees
At Mel's house or at Katie's
Get wired and stay up past 2
Now we're drinking Diet Dew
Eating sugar is our game
Pixie Chix is our nickname
Spilling drinks and causing fire
That's what happens when we're wired

Play Nintendo 64
Play one round then play 10 more
Start at college or job strife
Relax, it's the Game of Life
Before the whole night is spent
We blast loud music from RENT
Who else do we blast, you think?
Why, of course, it is NSYNC!
Monopoly takes much time
Go to jail for no crime
Sing songs and sound like chipmunks
Drinking sugar makes us drunk

Mix the Dew and Pixie Stix
Now we're really throwing fits
Being loud like total fools
Even been asked to leave Jewel
Nothing's funny, we laugh though
We party till roosters crow
Pick a guy and have a fling
Let's have fun and go bowling
Throw the ball in the gutter
Drink Dew until we stutter

Pretty soon our organs burst
It comes down to who dies first
Katie really has to fight
Mel can stay awake all night
Drink new Dew - it's called Code Red
Will we EVER go to bed?
Go to sleep at 5AM
Deepest sleep achieved is REM
Katie falls asleep on Mel
Next day we're tired as hell
Wake up looking like zombies
We need to catch up on our 'z's

No more sugar for that day
For our late night we will pay
Mel and Katie say good-bye
And come down from our sugar high
We crave Dew right there and then
Soon the cycle starts again!

Death

Death...is only the beginning...bwahahahaha :) J/K

This morning I was listening to KISS FM Chicago 103.5 getting my Drex on lol andthey were talking, apparently about death and scary experiences. This one woman came on and gave this testimonial type thing. It was such a great story...depending on how you look at it. Apparently she was sick and on a dozen or so medications and then got a cold on top of that. She got a perscription cold medicine. I don't know what exactly did this to her but one day she took all her meds like normal and she "died". She had been catholic for 15 years and quit as a teen to become pegan (i can't remember the real term she used). Well she took her meds and she could no longer hear anything and her vision got blurry. she couldn't find the phone and her roommate wasn't home so she was scared. before she knew it she felt like she was walking through water, it was difficult to move. She also was having a hard time breathing so she prayed. Then she felt a presence in the room and it was not happy she said. She presumed it was God and she knew He was pissed. He couldn't actually speak, of course, but she could tell he was saying "why should i help you, you left me, what should i do for you?" and she was just like "i can't do this without you, i'm putting myself in your hands". She said He decided He would help her and He told her to just lie down and go to sleep and everything would be fine. A little later her roommate came home and found her on the floor sheet white, covered in sweat, etc. They went to the hospital and found out one of the meds was screwing up the chemicals in her brain and her brain didn't know what to process anymore so it just shut down the body. BTW this whole episide happenned in an hour and a half she said. The out come was that she decided to go back to catholicism but mixing it with what she had previously practiced. The monk she spoke to had told her that all religions are based on certain truths and she needed to be true to herself as well. She was working for the government but now she works at a nursing home helping people feel better about themselves or something. I was just amazed at the story and wanted to share cuz it's the spooking season.

Ok I'll go post the hyper poem now so you can see what kind of writing you are in for. I also have the beginning of the Van Helsing poem, but I'm not ready to share yet. I figure this thing is going to be 80 pages long lol. I am too detailed about this crap.

Survivor

"I can't stop thinkin' 'bout you girl
It's like I'm livin' in some fantasy world"

Is Survivor an old band? I know they had songs in the 80s, but are they putting out new stuff? High on You has been in my brain for about a week and I never hear it. I love the lead singer's voice, but I have no clue what his name is lol.

For those of you who might have thought I was going to talk about reality tv in this segment, I guess I'll throw ya a bone. The current season of survivor is ok. Some of those girls are just too pretty and not Survivor material. I like the dude Chad, I think that's his name, with the fake leg. He's cute and awesome. They would be smart to pick him off sooner rather than later, but I hope he wins instead. Tonight is The Biggest Loser. I really kinda like that show. I didn't see the whole thing this week but I'm taping One Tree Hill to watch it.

Did anyone watch the RMAs? I'm already sick of this Ashlee Simpson thing.
Melissa

whah

whah! my family hasn't come back yet. i'm bored. nobody fed me so i had to make garlic cheesey bread and i burned the melted cheese and ruined the kewlaid i made. i shouldn't have added sugar like the packet said.
sad melissa

Bloody Hell!!!

Mom and Dude are currently taking Nana to the hospital cuz she's an idiot and won't help herself much like my mother. Maybe Dude will make mom invest in a few days stay as well. Doesn't anybody know its dinner time for Melissa???? I haven't eaten all day and ppl need to feed me. Why don't I just do something for myself? NO!
Anyway, it took Richard 4 years, but he finally asked me out today. Too bad I had to turn him down. Perhaps I will see Tony for Halloween :)
I'm a happy, but hungry Melissa

Nails

Aloha! Last Halloween I painted my nails orange and black, altertnating nails. This year I decided to get a little more complex. I painted each nail like candy corn :) If you don't look too closely it looks awesome! If you really examine my work, it looks like crap lol. I think it's unique and colorful.

I woke up from the best dream this morning. I was dreaming that Jewel was being stupid and let me work 45 minutes over cuz the lines were horrible and nobody was paying any attention. Then I went home and discovered mom had been to an estate sale and got a black leather chair in wooden framing. It was huge and overstuffed and groovy. Then I went somewhere and came back to discover that all our furniture was gone, and replaced with black leather everything and we tore up our carpeting so that we just had wooden floors. The whole place smelled so good like Katie's place in KY. I was so happy...

...Then I woke up. Mom was there as usual and that aggrivated me cuz I was still half asleep and she was all cheery and said hello to which I growled but she was determined to get a response and said HELLO and i growled louder, but in my mind I was thinking "I don't speak morning, go away." :)

I'm gonna be writing a poem about Van Helsing to post here. I think I will post the Hyper Poem here sometime as well.
Melissa

No patience!

From the time I get up in the morning, to the time I go to bed, I have no patience for my mother. I swear I will kill her one day, and I'm lookin' forward to it.

How do you tell someone that when you see their face you want to kick it in and whenever you hear their voice you want to rip their vocal chords out of their throat and strangle it with them?

Ya see, my life meter starts out full at the beginning of every day. The moment I open my bedroom door and see my mothers face, the life meter starts to dwindle. I get to school and I'm fine cuz she's not there and neither is work, which I swear I am quitting. So I stay happy for the day. Then when class is over, I have to go home and face her. She may as well be a damn cripple because I have to take her everywhere. That sucks a good chunk out of the life meter and severly wears my patience cuz she's an ass. We go buy cigarettes and then to the store to get groceries and VODKA. She always complains. I can say every line of hers before she does. She's such a predictable ass. I want to shoot her. Bush cannot take office again cuz I'll buy and handgun and kill my mother. I wonder if I could sue him for that. Hmmm intreguing thought. My mother is so worthless. I'm gonna go to bed and die cuz she' just sucked the life out of me and I was on the negative side of the life and patience spectrum.
Melissa

What a waste!

I just put my complete and total energy into writing a huge entry. I went to publish it and I get can't find server. Fuck! The long and the short of it was that yesterday work just was no fun and my managers are all retards. I wanted to kill myself. (calm down, not serious.)

At any rate, with yesterday being so emotional for me I'm glad that today is an easy day. I had a test in my 8:20 class which I did bad on, but I'm relaxed and don't care. Then In my sociology class we have a video and then I get to go home cuz there is no evening class for me today. Happy! Maybe I'll go home and behave and do what mom wants so that I can play Kingdom Hearts with bff tonight.

Melissa